Sky's Memory Lane

Most of the people would say, Photo is the best way to keep certain memories afresh, so that the sweet moments would stay there for us to glance back.
But when i looked back to those pictures, it does not remind me of my sweet moments only, it makes me sad. Perhaps i'm not satisfied with my current life, i longed for the past.
i love it when i was in my elementary school. i had a "girl friend" there, grand daughter of the head master. it was great, i dont have to worry for anything. i went to school in the morning, singing along with the radio, imitating Aaron Kwok in the afternoon, watching Ultraman killing monsters every thursday. Most of all, my family is whole by then.
i love it too, when i was in my primary school. Although my father left us when i was in standard 3, it didn't really stops me from enjoying my childhood. My life starts mingling with music back then, when i decided to join the military band of SRJK(C) Chung Cheng. It was, my happiest time of my childhood. Not to mention that i was one of the elite students who got picked by the school for the PTS test, which, if passed, will have us go directly from standard 3 to standard 5. I didn't make it though, but it's okay, i earn some great friendship, for example, Lik Yin, Teck Kean, etc... Did you know that we once played "Ultraman Killing Monster" Game in class? We sort of bullied a kid in our class, having him to potray as every monster appeared in the series.. He's a Pantai Remis kid, with kinda-dirty appearance, pity him.... i still remembered there's once he had a ring around his eyes, and we lost counted who did it to him, since then we dropped the game... that boy came to school with his mother yelling her head off, it was 1 of the funny scenes i had.
Do you know when i started to know about Cyber Cafe? It was when i'm in standard 6. We went to play Counter Strike on an afternoon, skipping tuition, along with Tony, Chai Kang, and a few more friends. The feeling of breaking rules is thrilling.
When i was sent for secondary, i was a bit nervous at first, scared of losing friends, but luckily we all went into the same class. I applied for school prefect, having to think that it was so cool to be one, and i stayed as a prefect for the rest of my secondary years. Having asked "the" question, i answered: I wanted to serve the school, helping to maintain discipline of the student. What an answer! hahaha, i'm breaking rules under the guise as well, how on earth am i goin to do so? But i did contribute quite a lot to the school, helping to catch smokers in the school and such, it's just my own attitude's problem i wasn't promoted, so told the Discipline master to me. I learned a lot in my secondary years, about vocals from school's Choir team, about musics from school's Military Band, about relationships from my crushes, etc... i enjoyed my secondary years, even though i didn't thought i would. My sweetest memory when i was in secondary would probably be spending time with my crush-at the moment. ( XD )
Now i'm in college, i felt my friends are all gone, they would not stay beside me anymore, we didn't have class gathering anymore, even if they had, i would be too busy for it, because i had dedicated my time to the church. my college lads are only available when we're all in college. every time when i was in kampar, i felt so lonely, as if there's not shelter for me there. i felt so alone, until i've hooked up with my ex, last time. It was warm by then, having to fight for my future, for someone i love, someone who cares alot abt me, i felt so energetic. But, for that cause, i tend to demand alot from her, so in the end, we break up. it was hard to maintain, for peoples like me, cause i want alot from my couple, i want full attention, which would bring her a lot of pressure.
Actually i don't enjoy my college life, it was dull, and lonely.
i love my past more than i love my future.

The only thing i would love in my future is what can i do for my Lord. I want to build Him an Army of Praise, I'm working towards this direction now, and i believe, within His guidance, i will succeed in this mission. plz pray for me.

1 Malaysia

This is a short movie from our beloved local director, Yasmin Ahmad, who had just passed away.



http://15malaysia.com/films/chocolate/

When i first watched this video, i felt like, yeah... that's what our parents taught us to. Ever since i was a little kid, my parents and my relatives had been teaching us the old prejudice of the races in Malaysia. Something like we're the one doing all the hard work, and yet the government running by the malays (duh, the prime minister was, and still is, a malay. i've got questions why other races cant be a prime minister? but i guess i'm chicken, so i dare not ask in public.) demanded us to share our hard-earned profit with the lazy, doing-nothing malays. All these, for the young minds of the chinese children, and almost all chinese families taught the same thing to their youngsters! can you imagine that?

The story went through a malay girl who stopped by the chinese boy's grocery shop to buy batteries. It felt for me like, the young malay lady was innocent, but she was ill-treated by the furious chinese boy, she does not deserve that. I felt like, the young ones in this video is potraying us. Some of us, thanks to our parents and families, we hate malays, for some unsure reasons. We never bother to find out whether do they still act the same way as their grandpas' treating ours'. We never give them chance to prove that they've changed.

And all these while, the politician has done a bad job working out the new slogan they've picked for 2009's National day--One Malaysia. Earlier in year, Haven't we saw on newspaper that some politician claims that us the chinese are just immigrants? Those politicians came from where? From BN. Where, to be exact? UMNO. Why are we being treated like this? Also, recently, i've heard from my pastor, about the History TextBook for Form 4 students all around the nation being tampered with, and all the efforts the Chinese and Indians poured out for the nation has been miraculously disappeared from it.

Tunku Abdul Rahman, don't you ever forget, when u travel to London to apply for Nation's Independence, Tun Tan Cheng Lock is just beside you! MCA has always been there for BN, and now? you want the clear away MCA's effort in Nation's independence history? Who is the one playing with the racist issue?

Our nation is doing what the Japanese is doing currently. They tried to beautify their invasion during the Second World War by tampering their nation's history Textbook. They tried to cover their cruel massacre in Nanjing, China, by telling their children there's no such thing. Is that they way they show they've repented? Showed that they've felt sorry for what they've done to the world in the past? i don't think so... i think they're just trying to make themselves look nice in front of their future leaders... they're trying to cover all the cruel things they've done, in order to have a good impression for their children. For that motive, perhaps it's still acceptable, still it's a wrong way to do. But our nation? what's the motive of tampering our history? Does this shows that they (the malays) hates us more that we hate them? Does this means they wanna drive us off this country?

Enough with the "fault-check",
to be honest, i like the idea of Malaysia being united as 1, not 3, or more. I mean, I'm born in this country, not born in china, and migrated here.
If there's a statute to protect the bumiputras, I think i should be included. Why? I'm Born in here, not china. In my ID card, it says my nationality is Malaysian, not China.
If "Bumi" people enjoys special rights, I think so do I. I mean, whats the difference between us the local-born chinese and indians, compared with local-born malays? skin color? eye color? hair type? Even malays have fairer skin-tone, which looks like chinese. what's so different?
Personally i don't mind my national language is Malay, as long as I have the chance to learn my own mother tongue. About the national religion, is that neccesary? isn't it in our law that in this country we are free to choose any religion? should we force on a national religion? if a national religion is set, it means the whole nation's having the same religion, that's what i understand from books, perhaps i'm wrong... but if we enjoy the freedom of choosing our own religion, why in the world was the malays excluded in this law? Do they have the chance to choose? i guess not... they were born muslims, if i'm not mistaken. Is this one of their special "BUMI" protection? if that's so, i guess i don't want to have that protection anymore. XD

1 Malaysia, it's a far dream, very beautiful, and yet far to reach.
if one day, the nation is fair, justice, no more political games, then, i think, the dream's finally coming closer and closer.

技巧与生命

刚刚在教会里，谈到有关技巧与生命之间的问题，让我有些迷惑。
有位姐妹说，生命才重要。服事是透过生命来彰显。有好的生命才是最重要。

我不太认同。

生命很重要，我并不打算否认。
我也知道，明白生命的重要性。

但是，我觉得技巧也不能够被忽略。
我认为，技巧是神赐给我们的恩赐，
我们凭着恩赐去行神的工作。

我觉得，恩赐与生命都一样重要。
当然，生命略胜一筹。
因为，如果没有技巧，我们又如何能够做某些事呢？

比如说，一位弟兄，他的生命很好，
可他未必有敬拜的恩赐。
所谓敬拜的恩赐，是指带领敬拜的技巧。

又或则一位姐妹，
很有唱歌的恩赐，敬拜的恩赐，
可她未必有写歌的恩赐。

刚刚也说到，敬拜赞美里，
领唱的生命很重要。
领唱的技巧并不怎么样，
也能够让台下热烈起来。
一个人如果有生命，
就不会觉得某些敬拜赞美时段很烂，
气氛很冷。

这我也不太认同。
我觉得，我们是服事神没错，
但是如果你说我们没服事人，
那就有点错了。

圣经上说，我们若不爱身边的弟兄，
我们如何能说我们爱神？
我们连身边看得见的弟兄都没办法爱，
我们怎么爱我们看不见的神？

说真的，如果你说我们不服事人的话，
那我们也不必举行崇拜、布道会、圣诞晚会、双九节了。
那些难道都不是服事人吗？
我们只需每天呆在家里，
灵修祷告，唱诗敬拜就好啦，
何必出来参与服事呢？



我真的不太明白，请各位为我解答。谢谢。