Rainy morning in Kampar

How long, i wonder, had it stopped raining on the earth i stood on? We've been barbequed under the hot sun ever since the start of the year. The world's coming to an end? If not, why is the temperature of the earth surface exceeds 37 degree celcius?
lolz~ this is not my point~!
I've grew tired of lessons, classes in TARC.. having to walk this journey alone here is miserable. My life just repeat itself again and again.. classes on 1pm, ends at 2pm, then? went home for homework, more drama and movie? What goes after these? meals? games?
This is not my point either~!
I had plenty of views for something I'd wish to do, something dedicated to me by God. But, perhaps my views are too bizarre, it is proven not easy for the crowd to accept. They've tested my views again and again.. Time did prove that my views are correct, but i guess they've forgotten that before the others come to prove my theory accurate, I'm the one who proposed it. Most of the time, they think the guests brings in new techniques, new knowledge, but they never knew that we have a Technical Research and Discover Department of our own.
I said this not to prove that I'm such a genius or so. I'm just sad for being neglected, sad for being isolated, sad for the mistrust they showed me.
Yes, i may be proud, but who wouldn't be proud to have a true and living God? And to receive a great project from Him who overcomes death? Who wouldn't be proud to serve the Everlasting One? Who wouldn't be proud to sing for the One who came from God? Who won't? Aren't we suppose to brag about Jesus towards others, so that they learned of His glory? I thought this comment was made by Paul, if I'm correct?
Please, don't drive us away... yes, i am not alone, and i thank God for it. Please don't force us to leave what God has entrusted us to do. We bring no harm, leaders. We are just researchers who craves for better things, who would give anything to improve the status cuo.
I'm sad for what i get in return. I don't mind not being a leader. If that leader is gifted, God has a special plan for him/her, i am glad to follow.
I believe when God uses a man, He entrusts a vision to him/her, gives him/her whatever requirement to fulfill his/her tasks, for example the knowledge, the gift from heaven. Therefore, every leader of God's Kingdom has a heaven's mark on their soul, to mark them out from the others, so that they lead in God's army.
I once get a comment from a brother, who told me i am a power-thirsty person. What i do is just to gain influence and be a leader. What do you think?

Love, From A4J 2010

First of all, i'm sorry i was unable to share it cell group yesterday. I have to rush to kampar, because if i was too late, i'll reach my hostel at 10pm edi~

This blog is supposed to be posted last nite, but the internet in my hostel is down again... haiz, sad business~

Now, to continue to my story, as i reached Ipoh yesterday, an old indian woman came to me, asking for my help. She was a very old woman, i guess she's about 70. I noticed that she can't walk properly, perhaps some sickness on her legs? She carries 2 big luggages with her, and she has to cross the road. ( for your information, when we wanna go to kampar by bus, we have to get a bus from sitiawan to Ipoh first, and then walk a distance to another bus station nearby to catch a different bus to kampar. ) So i said yes. Usually i would just ignore these kind of situation, try to get myself as far as possible. I carried a luggage for that old madam, and we chatted in the journey,then suddenly i saw a bus that i was suppose to take ran past me! Immediately i tried to bid the old woman farewell, and ran after the bus (the bus did stop for me), but unfortunately i failed to catch the bus. So, disappointedly, i went back and help that old woman. I guess she saw my disappointment, because then she said to me:"son, don't be so afraid, you can get another bus over there."

And so, i accompanied her to the bus station. As we arrived, i heard she said :"halleluyah", and i was kinda like :"huh?!?!" She then asks if i'm a christian or not, i was shocked so i didnt reply her in words but i just show her the necklace hung on my neck. It was a cross. Then she said, i'm a christian too, and she blesses me. Through her face, i could see joy in it, as if she met a relative accidentally.

God taught us about LOVE this year in A4J, all sorts of LOVE. Love our nation, love our church, love our family, love our friends, love our leaders, love all the lost souls. And He just taught me again, how to love a stranger. I would never forget the grip of the old madam, when i helped her to cross the road.

Being needed by someone who needs help, that's LOVE.

Being a glass of water for those who were thirsty, that's LOVE.

(to all those friends who's waiting for a chinese translation, i'm sorry, but u guys have to wait for a little while lo... kinda busy recently~ will get it done A.S.A.P.~)

爱主

你爱主吗？怎么个爱法？

你爱主吗？有多深呢？

究竟怎么才算是爱主呢？

是否守着主日就算爱主呢？

或是热心事奉，就算爱主呢？

难道，为主牺牲，才算爱主？

你爱主吗？这个问题你有问过自己吗？

别误会，我问这个问题并非要告诉你们，我有多爱主。。。。。。

实际上，我也不是很爱主。。。。。。

我只是心中好奇而已。

要怎么做，才是爱主呢？

要怎么做，才会让我们对主的爱不只是嘴巴上说说而已呢？


《我一生要赞美你》--赞美之泉

高唱主，我爱你

高举我双手来赞美你

我的心，充满欢喜

我要歌唱来颂扬你

高唱 哈利路亚

我的心充满欢欣

高唱主，我爱你

我一生要赞美你


神对我说话了。。

[我只想平平安安地过日子，无忧无虑。纠纷，纷争，阴谋，诡计，争宠，夺权，暗算，虚伪，谎言，伪善，等等。。都离我而去吧。。我什么都不想要，我只想唱歌赞美祂。]

约伯老师的信心课！

今天灵修时读到了约伯记1：13-22， 上面说约伯在一天内失去了所有一切，无论是财产，仆人，牲畜，甚至是家人儿女。

“有一天，约伯的儿女正在他们长兄的家里吃饭喝酒，有报信的来见约伯，说：[牛正耕田，驴在旁边吃草，示巴人忽然闯来，把牲畜掳去，并用刀杀了仆人；唯有我一人逃脱，来报信给你。]他还说话的时候，又有人来说：[上帝从天上降下火来，将羊群和仆人都烧灭了；唯有我一人逃脱，来报信给你。]他还在说话的时候，又有人来说：[迦勒底人分作三队忽然闯来，把骆驼掳去，并用刀杀了仆人；唯有我一人逃脱，来报信给你。]他还在说话的时候，又有人来说：[你的儿女正在他们长兄的家里吃饭喝酒，不料，有狂风从旷野颳来，击打房屋的四角，房屋倒塌在少年人身上，他们就都死了；唯有我一个人逃脱，来报信给你。]” 约伯记 1：13-19

在这么一个短短的时间里，失去了所有的亲人和身家，如果换作是我们的话，我们承受得了吗？别人我不敢说，但是如果这些事情都发生在我身上，我看我当场昏死过去了。。

然而约伯接下来做的，让我真的很惭愧。

“约伯便起来，撕裂外袍，剃了头，伏在地上下拜，说：[我赤身出于母胎，也必赤身归回；赏赐的是耶和华，收取的也是耶和华。耶和华的名是应当称颂的。]” 约伯记 1：20-21

平心而论，我绝对做不出来。

我知道赏赐我这一切的，是我的主；我也知道，我的主能够收回这一切。但是，当祂真的收回的时候，我真的会受不了。

说穿了，我对耶稣的信心根本就不足够。

刚刚我看完这一段经文时，我心里就感到奇怪，为什么这些事情会发生在约伯身上呢？所以我就从第一章开始读起了。

原来约伯是一位大财主，很有钱，也很正直。上帝很喜欢他，所以上帝赐给他很多东西：丰盛的家产，美满的家庭。有一天，上帝在天堂开了一个宴会，所有上帝的儿女们都来了，撒旦也来了。上帝就跟撒旦说起这个约伯来，撒旦不以为是，续而挑战上帝说：“约伯现在那么爱你，是因为你赐给他很多祝福。等你把所有祝福都拿走了，看他还爱不爱你~”。于是，上帝就说了：“你都这样讲了，好吧，我把他交在你手里，但是，有一个条件，你不能要了他的性命。” （以上是以我个人的用词重述的。）

原来如此，对吧？

这一个问题，其实很经典。

我们爱上帝，是爱祂给我们的祝福呢，还是爱上帝单单就只因为上帝爱我们？
如果爱上帝，祂却不给我们祝福，我们是不是还爱祂呢？

这个有点言重了~换个说法：

如果，你现在的处境很不理想，生活不是很满意，你是否还是继续爱着上帝呢？

比如说，家里的人都反对你的信仰，你是否还会全新的爱你的上帝呢？
又比如说，你饿得快死了，上帝也没从天堂那丢一个面包下来，你还是爱祂吗？

学习爱神，单纯因为祂是创造我们的神，单纯因为祂是爱我们的神，单纯因为祂是为我们被钉在十字架上的神，就这样来爱祂，这是我现在的功课。

后记：
我觉得，在我们的生活里，千万别把什么事情都当成了理所当然。别把别人对你的好当成了理所当然。比如说，父母就理所当然要满足你一切要求？不尽然吧。。 朋友就理所当然都得陪着你？他们也应该有自己的忙碌啊。。。神也理所当然地都得赐福于你？你不爱祂，祂也要赐下许多的恩典给你？

Growing Up〈长大〉

Growing up, it's a natural process that everyone needs to undergo in their life.
长大，是一个很自然的现象，每个人都得经历的现象。

By growing up, we could drink beer without getting scold;
若我们长大了，喝啤酒别人也不会骂我们；

By growing up, peoples won't laugh at us when we're holding an opposite sex's hands;
若我们长大了，我们牵着异性的手，别人也不会觉得很好笑；

By growing up, we could earn our own money, buy anything we like with it, and we don't have to hear our moms mumbling about spending wisely;
若我们长大了，我们就可以自己赚钱，然后用它来买我们喜欢的东西，而且我们也不必去听我们的妈妈在耳边一直念“钱要好好花”一类的话；

By growing up, we get to marry the person we love the most, and our family members won't ask us:"Are you sure? you're just eleven!";
若我们长大了，我们就可以和我们最爱的人结婚，而我们的家人也不会问我们：“你肯定吗？你才十一岁耶！”；

By growing up, we get to have our own babies, and we can tell them that they came from the rubbish dumps, just like what our parents used to told us;
若我们长大了，我们就可以拥有自己的儿女，然后我们就可以告诉他：“你就是从垃圾堆里拾到的~”，就像我们的父母告诉我们的一样；

It sounds great to grow up, there's a lot of privileges only an adult can enjoy, for example, the Playboy magazine;
长大听起来很像很好噢，有很多好处是只有大人才可以享有的，比如说，成人杂志；

A lot of areas only an adult can enter, for example a pub;
很多只有大人才可以进去的地方，比如说酒吧；

A lot of things only an adult is allowed to have, for example condoms;
很多只有大人才可以拥有的东西，比如说安全套；

But, is everyone comfortable with growing up?
但是，是否每一个人都喜欢成长呢？

Do you know that, when we grow up, there are some things that left us for good?
你知道吗，当我们长大的时候，有一些东西永远离开了我们？

One of it is called "Naive".
其中一个就叫做“天真”。

If an adult is still naive, people around him would laugh at him, staring at him like you saw a rare panda walking in the street.
如果有一位成年人还是很天真，他周围的人都会笑他，看着他的眼神就很像你看见一只稀有的熊猫走在街上一样。

A comment for these kind of peoples: Childish.
对于他们这种人，只有一种评语：幼稚。

Another alternative:Hypocrite.
另一个代词：虚伪。

The another thing that would be stolen from you is Sincerity.
另一个会从你身上被偷的东西就是真诚。

If a person is still treating everyone around him sincerely, whole-heartedly, try to guess what his friends would say~
如果有一个人都全心全意地，真诚地对待他身边的朋友，猜猜他身边的人会怎么说~

Naive.
天真。

which comes to the conclusion -- stupid.
而其结论是 -- 笨。

Who is the nasty thief? A lot would ask. I say, it's the Time.
许多人都会问，谁是那可恶的小偷呢？我说呀，那就是时间。

I don't know how to explain it, but everyone seems to grow up lacking that 2 elements.
我不懂要怎么解释，不过每个人在成长的过程里似乎都缺了那两个因素。

Don't ever under-estimate these 2 elements.
千万别小看这两个因素。

They are treasures!
他们可是珍宝！


Christian View（基督徒观点）：
Jesus once said, let the child come, for those who wishes to enter the heaven must be like the child!
耶稣曾经说过，让小孩都到我这来，因为凡是要进天国的，都得想着小孩一样！

Why?
为什么？

Because they believe,
因为他们相信，

Without doubt,
毫无疑惑地、

Without questions,
毫无疑问的、

They just believe,
他们就只是相信，

Whole heartedly,
全心地、

Sincerely,
诚心地，

They believe.
他们就这样相信着。

Why can't we believe in God like they did?
为什么我们就不能像他们一样地相信神呢？

Is it that by growing up, our faith reduces gradually too?
是否因为着我们成长了，我们的信心也逐步消退了？

Dear friend, is your bible covered in dust?
亲爱的朋友啊，你的圣经是否被灰尘掩盖了？

Is your heart filled with earthly things?
你的心是否都被属世的事物充满了？

Time to clean the temple of God!
是时候我们来洗净我们上帝的圣殿了！

Clear the room for our Christ to stay in!
为那将要来临的基督预备好位子！

We are going to rock the nation!
我们即将要震撼整个国家！

The time is now!
现在就是时候！

Don't let growing up be an excuse to neglect our dear Lord,
别让成长成为了离开神的借口，

We shall serve with our maturity, our talents, with all we have!
我们要用我们的成熟，我们的恩赐，我们的所有来侍奉我们的神！

Amen?
阿们？

AMEN!
阿们！

黑暗的时代

每天张开眼睛，总会看见这世界上许多的灾难、祸害，仿佛提醒着我们，时间不远啦。。。
每天都有人心黑暗的一面出现在世人的眼里。。。
那些丧失良知的心，不知是否还应该被称为人心的心。。。
每天，只要打开报纸，打开电视，就会看见这些报道。。。
有时真的会感叹，我们的地球真的有那么黑暗，我们人类的心，真的有那么肮脏吗？
虐待一名那么幼小的儿童，22根针扎在身上啊，你不痛吗？
拿烧水泼女佣，你不觉得痛的吗？
怎么同为人类，你竟然能够做出这样的事来？？
你的心被魔鬼用铅换了吗？

在这黑暗的时代，很多人都渐渐地失去了信心。。。
忍耐的代价很高，因为选择不忍耐的人很多。。。
诱惑显得很难抵挡，因为选择不抵挡的人很多。。。

不过，我在这片黑暗里看见耶稣

他在这片黑暗里走着。。。

走去哪儿我暂时不知道。。。

不过我的确看见他。。。

不时，不时。。。

把他那钉痕的手伸出去，

把那些全身被黑暗笼罩的人们拉回有光的地方，

只是，

并不是每一个人都欣然接受，

然后在光芒中欢喜赞美神。

更多的是一甩，甩开了那钉痕的手。。。

然后慢慢的走下去，在黑暗里面，

被一个个有着倒五角星的记号的手，引往更深的黑暗里去。



没有病的人不需要医生，
有病的人才需要。。。

这一句是给那些想要反驳我的感觉的。。。

技巧与生命

刚刚在教会里，谈到有关技巧与生命之间的问题，让我有些迷惑。
有位姐妹说，生命才重要。服事是透过生命来彰显。有好的生命才是最重要。

我不太认同。

生命很重要，我并不打算否认。
我也知道，明白生命的重要性。

但是，我觉得技巧也不能够被忽略。
我认为，技巧是神赐给我们的恩赐，
我们凭着恩赐去行神的工作。

我觉得，恩赐与生命都一样重要。
当然，生命略胜一筹。
因为，如果没有技巧，我们又如何能够做某些事呢？

比如说，一位弟兄，他的生命很好，
可他未必有敬拜的恩赐。
所谓敬拜的恩赐，是指带领敬拜的技巧。

又或则一位姐妹，
很有唱歌的恩赐，敬拜的恩赐，
可她未必有写歌的恩赐。

刚刚也说到，敬拜赞美里，
领唱的生命很重要。
领唱的技巧并不怎么样，
也能够让台下热烈起来。
一个人如果有生命，
就不会觉得某些敬拜赞美时段很烂，
气氛很冷。

这我也不太认同。
我觉得，我们是服事神没错，
但是如果你说我们没服事人，
那就有点错了。

圣经上说，我们若不爱身边的弟兄，
我们如何能说我们爱神？
我们连身边看得见的弟兄都没办法爱，
我们怎么爱我们看不见的神？

说真的，如果你说我们不服事人的话，
那我们也不必举行崇拜、布道会、圣诞晚会、双九节了。
那些难道都不是服事人吗？
我们只需每天呆在家里，
灵修祷告，唱诗敬拜就好啦，
何必出来参与服事呢？



我真的不太明白，请各位为我解答。谢谢。