silver spoon, golden spoon... who cares??
my dad was born with no spoons, so he worked out 1 for us.
when i was born, i carried a wooden spoon(too young jor ma, use dis wont spoil~).
after a few years, i found out actually my spoon is made of some sort of metal, just coated with wood... solid, man~ can tahan any attack~
but, 1 day, my metal spoon gone edi.. hilang lar.. so i go get a plastic spoon, just for spare la~ (no spoon i have to eat with hand jor lo.. >.<)
recently i found out my plastic spoon melted jor... >.< perhaps the global warming issues caused this.. hmm~
(this is just a joke, hehehe~)
The inspiration for this blog came from a status of my cousin he posted on Facebook.. he said "Why other people always born with a silver spoon whereas i was born with a broken spoon ??? "
What i really want to say is.. bro, you're actually born with golden spoon.. just u're blind to the real treasure your dad left for you. For your information, your dad is the richest person in the whole family.. all the assets he had, it's more than enough to support your life until the day you die... that is if you spend it wisely... but no, you're acting stupid.. spending your father's hard earn money like tap water...
what's with big houses? the current house you live in isn't cozy enough? what else you want? a castle?
what's with those branded goods? things aren't branded does not mean they are useless, you know?
do you need a branded badminton racket when you're just playing occasionally?
do you need a brand new armani t shirt when you're just sitting in the living room?
do you know the difference between NEED and WANT?
What's with branded college? TARC isn't good enough for you? Think again! if TARC isn't good, why are there more than 5 campuses of TARC running in the whole country?
stop acting childish and start thinking like a man now! your dad's gone and you should be taking care of the family as well, now that 1 of the bread winner of your family is now gone, you should be saving up more to prepare for any possibilities.. cant you share the burden of your mother? have you no sympathy, seeing her working day and night?
and as for the eldest brother in the family.. please show me your wits and determination of taking care of your family! as the eldest son of the family, it is your duty to take over the role of a father and to guide your siblings.. the days of dawdling around in the house is over! cant you say anything when you knew your brothers was doing something wrong? it is your duty to correct them! it has fallen under your responsibility to guide them in their future, and have you prepared for this?
i know im not suppose to talk about this, i'm just feeling angry about how immature could they be... but perhaps, i'm not really much of a difference myself, compared to them... i too, wished my mom would give me a thousand bucks for a new handphone... which, in my family, it will be 1 of the wildest dreams... the most expensive handphone i had is just about rm 700 (W810i), and the most expensive item i had in my possesion is my laptop (a 5 years old second-hand DELL laptop.. ) which i had no idea how much it cost... perhaps i'm just being jealous.. who knows?
but there's 1 thing for sure!
my dad's story is true, and although he started his life with no spoon when he was born, he managed to give us a steel spoon~ a spoon which can be used for dining, a spoon capable of enduring, a spoon of hardwork, and more..
instead of golden spoons, silver spoons, i guess, my steel spoon suits me best~ cheap, but efficient~
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Friday, December 3, 2010
Hatred
I Hate my current life...
i hate all those studies..
i hate those admin staffs kept on tellin me"It's ur last sem u know?", and did nothing to help..
i hate dat i failed so many(things) and spend so many time on all of them... the thing i hate ever since i was in secondary!
"u're a bright kid, but u're lazy to study, dats all..." i hate this quote!
"come on, we're waiting for u man, why wont u graduate??", i hate this taunt even more!
it feels like they're just showing off how well they could study! man i hate it! i hate all those!
but yet, i must do it... it's all about the pride...
hw much of a pride i can get with a penny?
i hate all these.. but yet, i could not find a way to express it out... hiding myself up seems a way to me... if i could, i would jus feels like wanna hide myself up for some time....
at least till i found out how to deal with all those...
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Rainy morning in Kampar
How long, i wonder, had it stopped raining on the earth i stood on? We've been barbequed under the hot sun ever since the start of the year. The world's coming to an end? If not, why is the temperature of the earth surface exceeds 37 degree celcius?
lolz~ this is not my point~!
I've grew tired of lessons, classes in TARC.. having to walk this journey alone here is miserable. My life just repeat itself again and again.. classes on 1pm, ends at 2pm, then? went home for homework, more drama and movie? What goes after these? meals? games?
This is not my point either~!
I had plenty of views for something I'd wish to do, something dedicated to me by God. But, perhaps my views are too bizarre, it is proven not easy for the crowd to accept. They've tested my views again and again.. Time did prove that my views are correct, but i guess they've forgotten that before the others come to prove my theory accurate, I'm the one who proposed it. Most of the time, they think the guests brings in new techniques, new knowledge, but they never knew that we have a Technical Research and Discover Department of our own.
I said this not to prove that I'm such a genius or so. I'm just sad for being neglected, sad for being isolated, sad for the mistrust they showed me.
Yes, i may be proud, but who wouldn't be proud to have a true and living God? And to receive a great project from Him who overcomes death? Who wouldn't be proud to serve the Everlasting One? Who wouldn't be proud to sing for the One who came from God? Who won't? Aren't we suppose to brag about Jesus towards others, so that they learned of His glory? I thought this comment was made by Paul, if I'm correct?
Please, don't drive us away... yes, i am not alone, and i thank God for it. Please don't force us to leave what God has entrusted us to do. We bring no harm, leaders. We are just researchers who craves for better things, who would give anything to improve the status cuo.
I'm sad for what i get in return. I don't mind not being a leader. If that leader is gifted, God has a special plan for him/her, i am glad to follow.
I believe when God uses a man, He entrusts a vision to him/her, gives him/her whatever requirement to fulfill his/her tasks, for example the knowledge, the gift from heaven. Therefore, every leader of God's Kingdom has a heaven's mark on their soul, to mark them out from the others, so that they lead in God's army.
I once get a comment from a brother, who told me i am a power-thirsty person. What i do is just to gain influence and be a leader. What do you think?
lolz~ this is not my point~!
I've grew tired of lessons, classes in TARC.. having to walk this journey alone here is miserable. My life just repeat itself again and again.. classes on 1pm, ends at 2pm, then? went home for homework, more drama and movie? What goes after these? meals? games?
This is not my point either~!
I had plenty of views for something I'd wish to do, something dedicated to me by God. But, perhaps my views are too bizarre, it is proven not easy for the crowd to accept. They've tested my views again and again.. Time did prove that my views are correct, but i guess they've forgotten that before the others come to prove my theory accurate, I'm the one who proposed it. Most of the time, they think the guests brings in new techniques, new knowledge, but they never knew that we have a Technical Research and Discover Department of our own.
I said this not to prove that I'm such a genius or so. I'm just sad for being neglected, sad for being isolated, sad for the mistrust they showed me.
Yes, i may be proud, but who wouldn't be proud to have a true and living God? And to receive a great project from Him who overcomes death? Who wouldn't be proud to serve the Everlasting One? Who wouldn't be proud to sing for the One who came from God? Who won't? Aren't we suppose to brag about Jesus towards others, so that they learned of His glory? I thought this comment was made by Paul, if I'm correct?
Please, don't drive us away... yes, i am not alone, and i thank God for it. Please don't force us to leave what God has entrusted us to do. We bring no harm, leaders. We are just researchers who craves for better things, who would give anything to improve the status cuo.
I'm sad for what i get in return. I don't mind not being a leader. If that leader is gifted, God has a special plan for him/her, i am glad to follow.
I believe when God uses a man, He entrusts a vision to him/her, gives him/her whatever requirement to fulfill his/her tasks, for example the knowledge, the gift from heaven. Therefore, every leader of God's Kingdom has a heaven's mark on their soul, to mark them out from the others, so that they lead in God's army.
I once get a comment from a brother, who told me i am a power-thirsty person. What i do is just to gain influence and be a leader. What do you think?
Monday, June 28, 2010
Love, From A4J 2010
First of all, i'm sorry i was unable to share it cell group yesterday. I have to rush to kampar, because if i was too late, i'll reach my hostel at 10pm edi~
This blog is supposed to be posted last nite, but the internet in my hostel is down again... haiz, sad business~
Now, to continue to my story, as i reached Ipoh yesterday, an old indian woman came to me, asking for my help. She was a very old woman, i guess she's about 70. I noticed that she can't walk properly, perhaps some sickness on her legs? She carries 2 big luggages with her, and she has to cross the road. ( for your information, when we wanna go to kampar by bus, we have to get a bus from sitiawan to Ipoh first, and then walk a distance to another bus station nearby to catch a different bus to kampar. ) So i said yes. Usually i would just ignore these kind of situation, try to get myself as far as possible. I carried a luggage for that old madam, and we chatted in the journey,then suddenly i saw a bus that i was suppose to take ran past me! Immediately i tried to bid the old woman farewell, and ran after the bus (the bus did stop for me), but unfortunately i failed to catch the bus. So, disappointedly, i went back and help that old woman. I guess she saw my disappointment, because then she said to me:"son, don't be so afraid, you can get another bus over there."
And so, i accompanied her to the bus station. As we arrived, i heard she said :"halleluyah", and i was kinda like :"huh?!?!" She then asks if i'm a christian or not, i was shocked so i didnt reply her in words but i just show her the necklace hung on my neck. It was a cross. Then she said, i'm a christian too, and she blesses me. Through her face, i could see joy in it, as if she met a relative accidentally.
God taught us about LOVE this year in A4J, all sorts of LOVE. Love our nation, love our church, love our family, love our friends, love our leaders, love all the lost souls. And He just taught me again, how to love a stranger. I would never forget the grip of the old madam, when i helped her to cross the road.
Being needed by someone who needs help, that's LOVE.
Being a glass of water for those who were thirsty, that's LOVE.
(to all those friends who's waiting for a chinese translation, i'm sorry, but u guys have to wait for a little while lo... kinda busy recently~ will get it done A.S.A.P.~)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
伤信 Sad Letter
给一位隐居在我心里的女生，
某某某小姐，你好。虽然我知道你的名字，可是我不太肯定是不是你，所以我没用你的名字来称呼你。基于你已经有好几个月都没交房租了，在迫不得已的情况之下我只好要求你搬离我的心了。对不起，你不能再霸占这个单位却不付相对的租金。请求你给与合作，并于近期内搬离。谢谢。
心碎的房东上。
To a girl who lives deeply in my heart.
Hello. Although i think i know you, but i'm not certain of it, so i didn't address you with your name. Due to the owed rentals, I would have to ask you to move out of my heart. I'm sorry but i cannot let you stay here without paying the rent. Your co-operation is appreciated. You are expected to move out as soon as possible. Thank you.
Heart-broken landlord.
某某某小姐，你好。虽然我知道你的名字，可是我不太肯定是不是你，所以我没用你的名字来称呼你。基于你已经有好几个月都没交房租了，在迫不得已的情况之下我只好要求你搬离我的心了。对不起，你不能再霸占这个单位却不付相对的租金。请求你给与合作，并于近期内搬离。谢谢。
心碎的房东上。
To a girl who lives deeply in my heart.
Hello. Although i think i know you, but i'm not certain of it, so i didn't address you with your name. Due to the owed rentals, I would have to ask you to move out of my heart. I'm sorry but i cannot let you stay here without paying the rent. Your co-operation is appreciated. You are expected to move out as soon as possible. Thank you.
Heart-broken landlord.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
对不起，我不想喜欢你了，可以吗？
之前我曾经对人说过，
我们人的心，就很像蛋糕一样，
当我们真心待人的时候，
我们就会把蛋糕切了，
分出其中一片给他。
如果我们很幸运地找到了一位爱我们的人，
那，我们的蛋糕虽然切了分给别人，
但是也会从他们那里收回一片蛋糕来补回这个缺口。
坦白说，
我没那么幸运。
从来就只有分蛋糕的份。
收成总比撒出去的少，少很多。
这里不是责备你们哦，别往心里去。
我发现我心里的那蛋糕，可以分成4份而已。
第一份，送给了我之前的暗恋对象了。
第二份，送给了我的前女友。
第三份，送给了一些在我生命里遇上的女孩。虽然他们只是我生命里的过客，有些甚至把我当成个屁~不过，还是有一些对我来说很重要的朋友。
第四份。。。送给了我直到现在依然很喜欢的人。
这个人，我不会跟他在一起；
他不会喜欢上我；
我们彼此都非常有默契地，有意无意地避开这尴尬局面；
我们之间从一开始就不可能有得继续。
说实话，我开始怀疑，我到底真的需要爱情吗？
我应该只想要让别人疼我而已。
可我不喜欢我家人疼我的方式。
别说那个，说回这个吧。
说真的，我的蛋糕分完了哦。。。
没有蛋糕了。这种蛋糕不是说没了就烤个新的；
这种蛋糕一生人就只有那么的一个。
我心里面累了。
我已经遇到两次，
我心爱的人让我帮忙他解决感情问题。
不是追求某某男生，就是要怎么复合。
说实在的，我心里面真的疲劳了。特别是在很有趣的，我分了蛋糕给她，她却转手给了他。
虽然说，喜欢并不代表爱了。
可我心里，差别不是很大。
我最忍受不了我放在心里的人，不把我放在心里。
根本就不重视。。。
看着看着，心都淡了。。。
何必热脸颊贴上别人的冷屁股？
对不起，我不想喜欢你了，可以吗？
这是我最后一次主动打电话给你，不为了任何重要的事了，你知道吗？
这是我最后一次用有感情的眼睛望着你了，你知道吗？
这是我最有一次问你：“有空吗？陪我一下好吗？”了。
我真的没有能力了，我不是万能的。我的力量不是永远的。
反正你现在有那么爱你的人守护着你了，没了我，你也不差那一位护花使者。
而且，我早说过，我们的感情根本就没办法撑那么久，总有一天会结束。请为我留下一点自信好吗？让我自己一个人离开。不想被你拒绝、变相地赶我出你的生命。我自己走好了。
对不起呢。。。我不想再保护你了，可以吗？
对不起，我不想再帮你了，反正有他，他会做得比我好。
对不起，我想走。。。可以让我走吗？虽然这其实是我自己把自己困在这里的。
最后，我真的很想对你说出我一直都没有勇气说的话：“我真的很喜欢你。”
我们人的心，就很像蛋糕一样，
当我们真心待人的时候，
我们就会把蛋糕切了，
分出其中一片给他。
如果我们很幸运地找到了一位爱我们的人，
那，我们的蛋糕虽然切了分给别人，
但是也会从他们那里收回一片蛋糕来补回这个缺口。
坦白说，
我没那么幸运。
从来就只有分蛋糕的份。
收成总比撒出去的少，少很多。
这里不是责备你们哦，别往心里去。
我发现我心里的那蛋糕，可以分成4份而已。
第一份，送给了我之前的暗恋对象了。
第二份，送给了我的前女友。
第三份，送给了一些在我生命里遇上的女孩。虽然他们只是我生命里的过客，有些甚至把我当成个屁~不过，还是有一些对我来说很重要的朋友。
第四份。。。送给了我直到现在依然很喜欢的人。
这个人，我不会跟他在一起；
他不会喜欢上我；
我们彼此都非常有默契地，有意无意地避开这尴尬局面；
我们之间从一开始就不可能有得继续。
说实话，我开始怀疑，我到底真的需要爱情吗？
我应该只想要让别人疼我而已。
可我不喜欢我家人疼我的方式。
别说那个，说回这个吧。
说真的，我的蛋糕分完了哦。。。
没有蛋糕了。这种蛋糕不是说没了就烤个新的；
这种蛋糕一生人就只有那么的一个。
我心里面累了。
我已经遇到两次，
我心爱的人让我帮忙他解决感情问题。
不是追求某某男生，就是要怎么复合。
说实在的，我心里面真的疲劳了。特别是在很有趣的，我分了蛋糕给她，她却转手给了他。
虽然说，喜欢并不代表爱了。
可我心里，差别不是很大。
我最忍受不了我放在心里的人，不把我放在心里。
根本就不重视。。。
看着看着，心都淡了。。。
何必热脸颊贴上别人的冷屁股？
对不起，我不想喜欢你了，可以吗？
这是我最后一次主动打电话给你，不为了任何重要的事了，你知道吗？
这是我最后一次用有感情的眼睛望着你了，你知道吗？
这是我最有一次问你：“有空吗？陪我一下好吗？”了。
我真的没有能力了，我不是万能的。我的力量不是永远的。
反正你现在有那么爱你的人守护着你了，没了我，你也不差那一位护花使者。
而且，我早说过，我们的感情根本就没办法撑那么久，总有一天会结束。请为我留下一点自信好吗？让我自己一个人离开。不想被你拒绝、变相地赶我出你的生命。我自己走好了。
对不起呢。。。我不想再保护你了，可以吗？
对不起，我不想再帮你了，反正有他，他会做得比我好。
对不起，我想走。。。可以让我走吗？虽然这其实是我自己把自己困在这里的。
最后，我真的很想对你说出我一直都没有勇气说的话：“我真的很喜欢你。”
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Someone To Fall Back On -- Aly Michalka(Bandslam)
这是一首我最近很喜欢的歌，我想介绍给每位我心里很重视的朋友。特地把它翻译了，是因为我那位朋友英文不行。呵呵~不过我只觉得前半段的歌词比较有意思~后边半段几乎重复，所以我就偷懒了~呵呵~还请别见怪~
I'll never be a knight in armor ,
我永远不会是一位身穿盔甲的骑士，
with a sword in hand, Or a kamikaze fighter,
手里拿着剑地，或是一位神风战士（日本在二战时代攻打珍珠港的军队代号就是神风。）。
Don't count on me to storm the barricades ,
别奢望我去攻打堡垒，
and take a stand, or hold my ground,
然后占领它，或是坚持我的立场。
You'll never see any scars or wounds,
你永远也不会看到任何伤疤或伤口，
I don't walk on coals, I won't walk on water,
我不在火炭上行走，我也不会在水面上行走。
I am no prince, I am no saint,
我不是王子，我不是圣人，
I am not anyone's wildest dream,
我也不是任何人最狂野的梦想，
But i will stand behind, and be someone to fall back on.
不过我会站在你背后，成为一位你能够依靠的人。
Some comedy,
You're bruised and beaten down,
And i am the one who's looking for a favor
Still, honestly,
You don't believe me but the things i have
Are the things you need,
You look at me like i don't make sense,
Like a waste of time,
Like it serves no purpose,
I am no prince, I am no saint,
And if that's what you believe you need,
You're wrong, You don't need much,
You need someone to fall back on.
And I'll be that, I'll take you side
If I'm the only one, I'm used to that
I've been alone, I'd rather be,
The half of us, the least of you
The best of me.
And i will be, I'll be your prince, I'll be your saint,
I will go crashing through fences in your name.
I will,i swear, I'll be someone to fall back on
I'll be the one who waits, and for as long as you let me
I will be the one you need, I'll be someone to fall back on
Someone to fall back on
One to fall back on
I'll never be a knight in armor ,
我永远不会是一位身穿盔甲的骑士，
with a sword in hand, Or a kamikaze fighter,
手里拿着剑地，或是一位神风战士（日本在二战时代攻打珍珠港的军队代号就是神风。）。
Don't count on me to storm the barricades ,
别奢望我去攻打堡垒，
and take a stand, or hold my ground,
然后占领它，或是坚持我的立场。
You'll never see any scars or wounds,
你永远也不会看到任何伤疤或伤口，
I don't walk on coals, I won't walk on water,
我不在火炭上行走，我也不会在水面上行走。
I am no prince, I am no saint,
我不是王子，我不是圣人，
I am not anyone's wildest dream,
我也不是任何人最狂野的梦想，
But i will stand behind, and be someone to fall back on.
不过我会站在你背后，成为一位你能够依靠的人。
Some comedy,
You're bruised and beaten down,
And i am the one who's looking for a favor
Still, honestly,
You don't believe me but the things i have
Are the things you need,
You look at me like i don't make sense,
Like a waste of time,
Like it serves no purpose,
I am no prince, I am no saint,
And if that's what you believe you need,
You're wrong, You don't need much,
You need someone to fall back on.
And I'll be that, I'll take you side
If I'm the only one, I'm used to that
I've been alone, I'd rather be,
The half of us, the least of you
The best of me.
And i will be, I'll be your prince, I'll be your saint,
I will go crashing through fences in your name.
I will,i swear, I'll be someone to fall back on
I'll be the one who waits, and for as long as you let me
I will be the one you need, I'll be someone to fall back on
Someone to fall back on
One to fall back on
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Growing Up〈长大〉
Growing up, it's a natural process that everyone needs to undergo in their life.
长大，是一个很自然的现象，每个人都得经历的现象。
By growing up, we could drink beer without getting scold;
若我们长大了，喝啤酒别人也不会骂我们；
By growing up, peoples won't laugh at us when we're holding an opposite sex's hands;
若我们长大了，我们牵着异性的手，别人也不会觉得很好笑；
By growing up, we could earn our own money, buy anything we like with it, and we don't have to hear our moms mumbling about spending wisely;
若我们长大了，我们就可以自己赚钱，然后用它来买我们喜欢的东西，而且我们也不必去听我们的妈妈在耳边一直念“钱要好好花”一类的话；
By growing up, we get to marry the person we love the most, and our family members won't ask us:"Are you sure? you're just eleven!";
若我们长大了，我们就可以和我们最爱的人结婚，而我们的家人也不会问我们：“你肯定吗？你才十一岁耶！”；
By growing up, we get to have our own babies, and we can tell them that they came from the rubbish dumps, just like what our parents used to told us;
若我们长大了，我们就可以拥有自己的儿女，然后我们就可以告诉他：“你就是从垃圾堆里拾到的~”，就像我们的父母告诉我们的一样；
It sounds great to grow up, there's a lot of privileges only an adult can enjoy, for example, the Playboy magazine;
长大听起来很像很好噢，有很多好处是只有大人才可以享有的，比如说，成人杂志；
A lot of areas only an adult can enter, for example a pub;
很多只有大人才可以进去的地方，比如说酒吧；
A lot of things only an adult is allowed to have, for example condoms;
很多只有大人才可以拥有的东西，比如说安全套；
But, is everyone comfortable with growing up?
但是，是否每一个人都喜欢成长呢？
Do you know that, when we grow up, there are some things that left us for good?
你知道吗，当我们长大的时候，有一些东西永远离开了我们？
One of it is called "Naive".
其中一个就叫做“天真”。
If an adult is still naive, people around him would laugh at him, staring at him like you saw a rare panda walking in the street.
如果有一位成年人还是很天真，他周围的人都会笑他，看着他的眼神就很像你看见一只稀有的熊猫走在街上一样。
A comment for these kind of peoples: Childish.
对于他们这种人，只有一种评语：幼稚。
Another alternative:Hypocrite.
另一个代词：虚伪。
The another thing that would be stolen from you is Sincerity.
另一个会从你身上被偷的东西就是真诚。
If a person is still treating everyone around him sincerely, whole-heartedly, try to guess what his friends would say~
如果有一个人都全心全意地，真诚地对待他身边的朋友，猜猜他身边的人会怎么说~
Naive.
天真。
which comes to the conclusion -- stupid.
而其结论是 -- 笨。
Who is the nasty thief? A lot would ask. I say, it's the Time.
许多人都会问，谁是那可恶的小偷呢？我说呀，那就是时间。
I don't know how to explain it, but everyone seems to grow up lacking that 2 elements.
我不懂要怎么解释，不过每个人在成长的过程里似乎都缺了那两个因素。
Don't ever under-estimate these 2 elements.
千万别小看这两个因素。
They are treasures!
他们可是珍宝！
Christian View（基督徒观点）：
Jesus once said, let the child come, for those who wishes to enter the heaven must be like the child!
耶稣曾经说过，让小孩都到我这来，因为凡是要进天国的，都得想着小孩一样！
Why?
为什么？
Because they believe,
因为他们相信，
Without doubt,
毫无疑惑地、
Without questions,
毫无疑问的、
They just believe,
他们就只是相信，
Whole heartedly,
全心地、
Sincerely,
诚心地，
They believe.
他们就这样相信着。
Why can't we believe in God like they did?
为什么我们就不能像他们一样地相信神呢？
Is it that by growing up, our faith reduces gradually too?
是否因为着我们成长了，我们的信心也逐步消退了？
Dear friend, is your bible covered in dust?
亲爱的朋友啊，你的圣经是否被灰尘掩盖了？
Is your heart filled with earthly things?
你的心是否都被属世的事物充满了？
Time to clean the temple of God!
是时候我们来洗净我们上帝的圣殿了！
Clear the room for our Christ to stay in!
为那将要来临的基督预备好位子！
We are going to rock the nation!
我们即将要震撼整个国家！
The time is now!
现在就是时候！
Don't let growing up be an excuse to neglect our dear Lord,
别让成长成为了离开神的借口，
We shall serve with our maturity, our talents, with all we have!
我们要用我们的成熟，我们的恩赐，我们的所有来侍奉我们的神！
Amen?
阿们？
AMEN!
阿们！
长大，是一个很自然的现象，每个人都得经历的现象。
By growing up, we could drink beer without getting scold;
若我们长大了，喝啤酒别人也不会骂我们；
By growing up, peoples won't laugh at us when we're holding an opposite sex's hands;
若我们长大了，我们牵着异性的手，别人也不会觉得很好笑；
By growing up, we could earn our own money, buy anything we like with it, and we don't have to hear our moms mumbling about spending wisely;
若我们长大了，我们就可以自己赚钱，然后用它来买我们喜欢的东西，而且我们也不必去听我们的妈妈在耳边一直念“钱要好好花”一类的话；
By growing up, we get to marry the person we love the most, and our family members won't ask us:"Are you sure? you're just eleven!";
若我们长大了，我们就可以和我们最爱的人结婚，而我们的家人也不会问我们：“你肯定吗？你才十一岁耶！”；
By growing up, we get to have our own babies, and we can tell them that they came from the rubbish dumps, just like what our parents used to told us;
若我们长大了，我们就可以拥有自己的儿女，然后我们就可以告诉他：“你就是从垃圾堆里拾到的~”，就像我们的父母告诉我们的一样；
It sounds great to grow up, there's a lot of privileges only an adult can enjoy, for example, the Playboy magazine;
长大听起来很像很好噢，有很多好处是只有大人才可以享有的，比如说，成人杂志；
A lot of areas only an adult can enter, for example a pub;
很多只有大人才可以进去的地方，比如说酒吧；
A lot of things only an adult is allowed to have, for example condoms;
很多只有大人才可以拥有的东西，比如说安全套；
But, is everyone comfortable with growing up?
但是，是否每一个人都喜欢成长呢？
Do you know that, when we grow up, there are some things that left us for good?
你知道吗，当我们长大的时候，有一些东西永远离开了我们？
One of it is called "Naive".
其中一个就叫做“天真”。
If an adult is still naive, people around him would laugh at him, staring at him like you saw a rare panda walking in the street.
如果有一位成年人还是很天真，他周围的人都会笑他，看着他的眼神就很像你看见一只稀有的熊猫走在街上一样。
A comment for these kind of peoples: Childish.
对于他们这种人，只有一种评语：幼稚。
Another alternative:Hypocrite.
另一个代词：虚伪。
The another thing that would be stolen from you is Sincerity.
另一个会从你身上被偷的东西就是真诚。
If a person is still treating everyone around him sincerely, whole-heartedly, try to guess what his friends would say~
如果有一个人都全心全意地，真诚地对待他身边的朋友，猜猜他身边的人会怎么说~
Naive.
天真。
which comes to the conclusion -- stupid.
而其结论是 -- 笨。
Who is the nasty thief? A lot would ask. I say, it's the Time.
许多人都会问，谁是那可恶的小偷呢？我说呀，那就是时间。
I don't know how to explain it, but everyone seems to grow up lacking that 2 elements.
我不懂要怎么解释，不过每个人在成长的过程里似乎都缺了那两个因素。
Don't ever under-estimate these 2 elements.
千万别小看这两个因素。
They are treasures!
他们可是珍宝！
Christian View（基督徒观点）：
Jesus once said, let the child come, for those who wishes to enter the heaven must be like the child!
耶稣曾经说过，让小孩都到我这来，因为凡是要进天国的，都得想着小孩一样！
Why?
为什么？
Because they believe,
因为他们相信，
Without doubt,
毫无疑惑地、
Without questions,
毫无疑问的、
They just believe,
他们就只是相信，
Whole heartedly,
全心地、
Sincerely,
诚心地，
They believe.
他们就这样相信着。
Why can't we believe in God like they did?
为什么我们就不能像他们一样地相信神呢？
Is it that by growing up, our faith reduces gradually too?
是否因为着我们成长了，我们的信心也逐步消退了？
Dear friend, is your bible covered in dust?
亲爱的朋友啊，你的圣经是否被灰尘掩盖了？
Is your heart filled with earthly things?
你的心是否都被属世的事物充满了？
Time to clean the temple of God!
是时候我们来洗净我们上帝的圣殿了！
Clear the room for our Christ to stay in!
为那将要来临的基督预备好位子！
We are going to rock the nation!
我们即将要震撼整个国家！
The time is now!
现在就是时候！
Don't let growing up be an excuse to neglect our dear Lord,
别让成长成为了离开神的借口，
We shall serve with our maturity, our talents, with all we have!
我们要用我们的成熟，我们的恩赐，我们的所有来侍奉我们的神！
Amen?
阿们？
AMEN!
阿们！
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
心，爱（双语） Heart, Love(Dual Language!)
心，其实是一个很脆弱的物体。
heart, it's actually a fragile object.
它经不起碰撞。它会破碎。
It cannot withstand any tackles, it will shatter.
它经不起抛弃，它会破碎。
It cannot endure abandonment, it will broke.
它经不起打击，它会停止。
It cannot be shocked, it will stop.
说它是玻璃做的，也不太对。玻璃都比它坚硬不少。
Some say heart's made of glass, but i think glasses are much stronger than heart.
所谓心很坚强，其实就是在心的外围筑上围墙，竖起层层的保护。
And for those who says strong will, it's only a wall around the heart, a protection added around it.
心本身很脆弱，根本经不起我们在里面立任何地基。
Because the heart is too weak for us to do anything from within.
如此脆弱的心，一不小心就会摔破的这颗心，却是我们给对方，以表示我们爱他的证据。
But, It's this weak, fragile thing that we gave to people to show that we love them.
当我们真心爱一个人，我们就要把这颗心给他，表示我完全信任你，我的心也属于你。
When we really love someone, we gave them our heart, to tell them that I trust you with all my heart, and that my heart beats for you too.
不止爱情，友情也是如此，只是我们没把心给他们。
Even friendship's almost the same, the only difference is we didn't give our friends our heart.
我们是握在手上，让对方看得见我们是真心要交他这个朋友。
We hold it in our hands, showing them that we are sincere in this friendship.
我突然之间觉得去年升中营里的话剧很有意思。
I felt that the drama shown last year in a camp from my church is meaningful.
我曾经读过一个故事，很有意思的故事：
I've once read of a story, it's a meaningful story:
在一个小镇里，住着一位少年。这位少年有着最完整的心--他的心是没有缺口的。
In a small town there lives a boy. This boy is special, he has a perfect heart -- his heart was never scarred before.
他对这件事感到非常自豪，时常笑别人那些残破的心。
He himself was proud of it, and he always brags of it in the public, showing off how perfect his heart is.
有一天，正当这位少年走在街上，满意地看着那些人众以惭愧的眼神看向他那完整的心，镇里来了一位乞丐。他的心。。。他的心都是缺口啊！
One day, as the boy was walking in the streets, enjoying the shameful looks from the town folks, a beggar came entering the town. That beggar has a heart of course, but... his heart was badly scarred.
这位少年走了过去，问道：“哈哈，这人穷嘛，连心也比别人来得难看的~”。
The boy walked towards the beggar, saying out loudly so that everyone could hear:"When a man is poor, even his heart is so hideous. haha~"
乞丐回答道：“是啊，我的心都是缺口，但是我的人生比你的更精彩啊，少年。”
The beggar replied:"oh yes, it's true that my heart is badly scarred, boy, but my life was much more meaningful than yours."
少年心里感到莫名其妙，怎么乞丐的生活还精彩了？
The boy felt weird, how on earth would a beggar's life is meaningful?
乞丐笑笑说道：“我的心都是缺口，因为我把我的心挖了，去填补别人心上的缺口啊。少年人哪，你这完整的心就代表着你不懂得爱人，你根本不懂得付出，就凭这一点，我的人生就比你精彩啦~”
The beggar replied with a smile:"young man, my heart is scarred like what you see, indeed it is, but it's because i cut it out to fill other people's scars on their heart. A perfect heart like yours proves that you do not know how to love, because you never know how to sacrifice. How could a life be meaningful if it does not know how to love?"
直到最近，我才醒悟：
I've figured these out recently:
原来，爱一个人，要学会牺牲。要真的懂得分别轻重，分辨什么才是最重要。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to sacrifice. Learn to differentiate which is more important, learn to place priorities in your heart.
原来，爱一个人，要学会忍耐。要懂得迁就。这不是怕老婆，这是尊重。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to endure. Learn to cope with a couple life. Learn to listen to what your couple says. It's not afraid of our spouse, it's respect.
原来，爱一个人，要懂得为他想。别为难他，别刁难他，别逼他做他不喜欢的事。
Loving a person, indicates that you must learn to think for him. Do not force him to do anything he does not like. Do not purposely setting up tasks for him.
原来，爱一个人，要学会接受。要懂得接纳他的一切，优点、缺点，一切。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to accept. Learn to accept his advantages, his disadvantages, bad habits, everything.
原来，爱一个人，首先要先懂得分辨喜欢和爱。这样才不会有误会。
Loving a person, must learn to differentiate which is love, which is just affection.
原来，爱一个人，要学会付出，而且要默默地付出。
Loving a person, must learn to pay effort for it.
原来，爱一个人，首先要先学会如何爱。。。
Loving a person, most importantly, must learn on how to love...
对过去的，我不后悔。写这篇文章的用意并不是要再续前缘，只是一个提醒。是一个教训，让我懂得这一切。。。
I dun regret for all the things that occurred in the past. The purpose of having this post is not to continue the past. It is merely a notice, a lesson that taught me all these.
heart, it's actually a fragile object.
它经不起碰撞。它会破碎。
It cannot withstand any tackles, it will shatter.
它经不起抛弃，它会破碎。
It cannot endure abandonment, it will broke.
它经不起打击，它会停止。
It cannot be shocked, it will stop.
说它是玻璃做的，也不太对。玻璃都比它坚硬不少。
Some say heart's made of glass, but i think glasses are much stronger than heart.
所谓心很坚强，其实就是在心的外围筑上围墙，竖起层层的保护。
And for those who says strong will, it's only a wall around the heart, a protection added around it.
心本身很脆弱，根本经不起我们在里面立任何地基。
Because the heart is too weak for us to do anything from within.
如此脆弱的心，一不小心就会摔破的这颗心，却是我们给对方，以表示我们爱他的证据。
But, It's this weak, fragile thing that we gave to people to show that we love them.
当我们真心爱一个人，我们就要把这颗心给他，表示我完全信任你，我的心也属于你。
When we really love someone, we gave them our heart, to tell them that I trust you with all my heart, and that my heart beats for you too.
不止爱情，友情也是如此，只是我们没把心给他们。
Even friendship's almost the same, the only difference is we didn't give our friends our heart.
我们是握在手上，让对方看得见我们是真心要交他这个朋友。
We hold it in our hands, showing them that we are sincere in this friendship.
我突然之间觉得去年升中营里的话剧很有意思。
I felt that the drama shown last year in a camp from my church is meaningful.
我曾经读过一个故事，很有意思的故事：
I've once read of a story, it's a meaningful story:
在一个小镇里，住着一位少年。这位少年有着最完整的心--他的心是没有缺口的。
In a small town there lives a boy. This boy is special, he has a perfect heart -- his heart was never scarred before.
他对这件事感到非常自豪，时常笑别人那些残破的心。
He himself was proud of it, and he always brags of it in the public, showing off how perfect his heart is.
有一天，正当这位少年走在街上，满意地看着那些人众以惭愧的眼神看向他那完整的心，镇里来了一位乞丐。他的心。。。他的心都是缺口啊！
One day, as the boy was walking in the streets, enjoying the shameful looks from the town folks, a beggar came entering the town. That beggar has a heart of course, but... his heart was badly scarred.
这位少年走了过去，问道：“哈哈，这人穷嘛，连心也比别人来得难看的~”。
The boy walked towards the beggar, saying out loudly so that everyone could hear:"When a man is poor, even his heart is so hideous. haha~"
乞丐回答道：“是啊，我的心都是缺口，但是我的人生比你的更精彩啊，少年。”
The beggar replied:"oh yes, it's true that my heart is badly scarred, boy, but my life was much more meaningful than yours."
少年心里感到莫名其妙，怎么乞丐的生活还精彩了？
The boy felt weird, how on earth would a beggar's life is meaningful?
乞丐笑笑说道：“我的心都是缺口，因为我把我的心挖了，去填补别人心上的缺口啊。少年人哪，你这完整的心就代表着你不懂得爱人，你根本不懂得付出，就凭这一点，我的人生就比你精彩啦~”
The beggar replied with a smile:"young man, my heart is scarred like what you see, indeed it is, but it's because i cut it out to fill other people's scars on their heart. A perfect heart like yours proves that you do not know how to love, because you never know how to sacrifice. How could a life be meaningful if it does not know how to love?"
直到最近，我才醒悟：
I've figured these out recently:
原来，爱一个人，要学会牺牲。要真的懂得分别轻重，分辨什么才是最重要。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to sacrifice. Learn to differentiate which is more important, learn to place priorities in your heart.
原来，爱一个人，要学会忍耐。要懂得迁就。这不是怕老婆，这是尊重。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to endure. Learn to cope with a couple life. Learn to listen to what your couple says. It's not afraid of our spouse, it's respect.
原来，爱一个人，要懂得为他想。别为难他，别刁难他，别逼他做他不喜欢的事。
Loving a person, indicates that you must learn to think for him. Do not force him to do anything he does not like. Do not purposely setting up tasks for him.
原来，爱一个人，要学会接受。要懂得接纳他的一切，优点、缺点，一切。
Loving a person, indicates you must learn to accept. Learn to accept his advantages, his disadvantages, bad habits, everything.
原来，爱一个人，首先要先懂得分辨喜欢和爱。这样才不会有误会。
Loving a person, must learn to differentiate which is love, which is just affection.
原来，爱一个人，要学会付出，而且要默默地付出。
Loving a person, must learn to pay effort for it.
原来，爱一个人，首先要先学会如何爱。。。
Loving a person, most importantly, must learn on how to love...
对过去的，我不后悔。写这篇文章的用意并不是要再续前缘，只是一个提醒。是一个教训，让我懂得这一切。。。
I dun regret for all the things that occurred in the past. The purpose of having this post is not to continue the past. It is merely a notice, a lesson that taught me all these.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
彩色的回忆
我常常听人说，回忆是黑白的。
电视剧，电影也都是这样演的。
只要是回忆的那一段，录了都会剪接成黑白的。
可是，回忆真的是黑白的吗？
刚刚我去了我举办的小学同学聚会，只有9个人哦，全班38人，只有9个人出席。
一些，在外地；一些，不在家乡。一些，不想念我们了吧？
无论如何，我很开心我依然坚持着这个聚会，虽然人数少了点，可是我就很像是走进了一家戏院，里面播着的电影是《2001年6B班回忆录》。
听着他们说起以前的事，各样的回忆都涌上心头~
我还真的很喜欢我小学时的生活呢~总觉得小学里的那些，才是真正的朋友（并不是说上了中学那些中学的朋友或大学的朋友不是真正的朋友。）。
谁说回忆只有黑色和白色而已？？
我看见的回忆，充满了很多现实世界里不存在的颜色呢~
开心的回忆，是属于一种很欢乐的颜色，有点红，又有些点缀似的金光闪闪。
伤心的回忆，是属于一种有点沉重的暗蓝色，再加上有点灰的阴霾。
不一样的回忆，有不一样的颜色。
怎么能够只是黑白呢？
好开心哦，这次的聚会，真的很好~让我看见了很多平常看不见的颜色。大家都好吗？都健康吗？今年见不到你们的，希望明年，我们能够相见咯~
别让我们所存的记忆只剩下黑与白，来聚一聚吧，从新为你的记忆上色~
电视剧，电影也都是这样演的。
只要是回忆的那一段，录了都会剪接成黑白的。
可是，回忆真的是黑白的吗？
刚刚我去了我举办的小学同学聚会，只有9个人哦，全班38人，只有9个人出席。
一些，在外地；一些，不在家乡。一些，不想念我们了吧？
无论如何，我很开心我依然坚持着这个聚会，虽然人数少了点，可是我就很像是走进了一家戏院，里面播着的电影是《2001年6B班回忆录》。
听着他们说起以前的事，各样的回忆都涌上心头~
我还真的很喜欢我小学时的生活呢~总觉得小学里的那些，才是真正的朋友（并不是说上了中学那些中学的朋友或大学的朋友不是真正的朋友。）。
谁说回忆只有黑色和白色而已？？
我看见的回忆，充满了很多现实世界里不存在的颜色呢~
开心的回忆，是属于一种很欢乐的颜色，有点红，又有些点缀似的金光闪闪。
伤心的回忆，是属于一种有点沉重的暗蓝色，再加上有点灰的阴霾。
不一样的回忆，有不一样的颜色。
怎么能够只是黑白呢？
好开心哦，这次的聚会，真的很好~让我看见了很多平常看不见的颜色。大家都好吗？都健康吗？今年见不到你们的，希望明年，我们能够相见咯~
别让我们所存的记忆只剩下黑与白，来聚一聚吧，从新为你的记忆上色~
Thursday, January 21, 2010
暗恋的滋味
暗恋，是一种又甜又酸的滋味，中间参杂着一丝的苦涩。
甜，因为彼此之间藏着那美好的暧昧。
因为不是情侣，所以懂得不去要求什么，
只要他百忙中抽空对你一笑，
这世界就像开满了花朵一样的灿烂。
酸，因为如此优秀的他，疼爱他的人肯定不止你一个。
因为不是情侣，所以他不会为你去拒绝另一位异性，
哪怕他们只是说句话，笑一笑，
这世界就像是被笼罩在愁云惨雾里，灰暗一片。
而苦涩的是，由始至终，你都只是个旁观者。
什么都没做，也什么都不能做的，旁观者。
若选择勇敢地踏出去，和他在一起的机率蛮高，有50%
可是，别忘了，失败、甚至失去这份友情的机率，也同样的有50%
甜，因为彼此之间藏着那美好的暧昧。
因为不是情侣，所以懂得不去要求什么，
只要他百忙中抽空对你一笑，
这世界就像开满了花朵一样的灿烂。
酸，因为如此优秀的他，疼爱他的人肯定不止你一个。
因为不是情侣，所以他不会为你去拒绝另一位异性，
哪怕他们只是说句话，笑一笑，
这世界就像是被笼罩在愁云惨雾里，灰暗一片。
而苦涩的是，由始至终，你都只是个旁观者。
什么都没做，也什么都不能做的，旁观者。
若选择勇敢地踏出去，和他在一起的机率蛮高，有50%
可是，别忘了，失败、甚至失去这份友情的机率，也同样的有50%
Monday, December 28, 2009
天空笔记
一个男人，不会无缘无故地，对一个女人千依百顺。
A man won't just simply follow every order a woman told him to do..
对她千依百顺，有几个原因而已....
but, if a man would listen and do quietly, then, there's only some reason that he's doing so...
第一，她是老板
Firstly, She's his boss...
第二，她是美女
Second, She's a gorgeous
第三，她是你老妈
Third, She's your mom...
第四，她是你的最爱。
and Fourth, She's your soulmate.
男人天生不太喜欢跟随在女人的背后，这是大男人主义吗？
不过，如果，有位男士每天都跟在女士的背后，你必须怀疑，他是不是个追踪狂？？
男人都喜欢看美丽的东西，美丽的女人，如果你要比较贴切的形容。。。
试验证明，看美女对男士的健康有益~ 真不懂那个研究到底是不是色男们做的？
男生都很喜欢炫耀~ 炫耀自己有的比别人好~
从身边的人事物，比如妻子比较美，到工作赚钱比较多，到车子比较大，到最后，谁的枪比较长。。。
当然，也有不炫耀的，不过，那只是少数的异类~
男人，大都是自恋狂。
因为他们总会对他们的另一半说，我就是最帅的~别人都不够我帅，别看他们，不然眼睛会生疮~
他们还会对他们的儿女们说，爸爸是最厉害的~爸爸每天为了你们工作那么辛苦，爸爸多帅？
这就是被命名为男人的生物。
还没写完，有待继续。
A man won't just simply follow every order a woman told him to do..
对她千依百顺，有几个原因而已....
but, if a man would listen and do quietly, then, there's only some reason that he's doing so...
第一，她是老板
Firstly, She's his boss...
第二，她是美女
Second, She's a gorgeous
第三，她是你老妈
Third, She's your mom...
第四，她是你的最爱。
and Fourth, She's your soulmate.
男人天生不太喜欢跟随在女人的背后，这是大男人主义吗？
不过，如果，有位男士每天都跟在女士的背后，你必须怀疑，他是不是个追踪狂？？
男人都喜欢看美丽的东西，美丽的女人，如果你要比较贴切的形容。。。
试验证明，看美女对男士的健康有益~ 真不懂那个研究到底是不是色男们做的？
男生都很喜欢炫耀~ 炫耀自己有的比别人好~
从身边的人事物，比如妻子比较美，到工作赚钱比较多，到车子比较大，到最后，谁的枪比较长。。。
当然，也有不炫耀的，不过，那只是少数的异类~
男人，大都是自恋狂。
因为他们总会对他们的另一半说，我就是最帅的~别人都不够我帅，别看他们，不然眼睛会生疮~
他们还会对他们的儿女们说，爸爸是最厉害的~爸爸每天为了你们工作那么辛苦，爸爸多帅？
这就是被命名为男人的生物。
还没写完，有待继续。
Sunday, December 13, 2009
fishy adventure
This is the poor fish that lay resting in my stomach (1/10 of it...), rest in peace (did it know it was me that ate it?? dun find me for revenge huh~)Now, for the detail of dat poor fish~
the bones in this picture is approximately 20-25cm long, excluding the head n tail.
the fish weights 2.8kg.
only 4 ppl eating this fish!
i can only eat 300grams... full jor....
dis fish is RM90+- / kg!
the name of the fish: 顺壳 （shun hock）-- freshwater fish.
Now, for the detail of my adventure~
This poor incident happened just now, when my brother suddenly so Hao Xin, offered me a lift to kampar. Actually he brought 2 friends of his for a search of delicacies in Tualang (which is about 45 minutes trip from UiTP-- Petronas de university in Perak.). Tualang is famous for it's freshwater seafoods. One of his friend is a tea dealer, and also a former chef, now a food specialist(i duno it's right to translate it this way, but the chinese word to describe it is 食客).
So, we went there, with intention to bury tonnes of freshwater seafoods into our stomach.
due to my skin allergy problems, i did not take any big prawns today, quite sad for it... when we cant eat some food due to our health condition, dat particular food became extra delicious in our eyes... why leh?? hmmm~ it's a question worth thinking~ mayb can get Nobel for it~
so, this poor fish is left with bones after half an hour being served up~ let's give it a loud applause to those 3 gentlements! they each consumed 2 big prawns(each the size of 10cm, weights about 100-150grams) , & (2.9kg-0.3kg/3= +-0.87)kg of the fish!
finally, the meal costs us rm 325.00, not 32.50~
Monday, November 9, 2009
火车虫的季节
今天早上，当我一手拿着面包，一手拿着豆奶赶往教室的时候，我发现红红黑黑的火车虫正一条一条地趴在阶梯那儿，写意地晒太阳。原来火车虫又回来啦？我还来不及对那火车虫先生酷刑逼供，上课的时间就到了。我只好很遗憾的继续前往课室的方向走去，临走前还丢下了一句：“算你好运！我会再回来“探望”你的，火车虫先生！”。
回想起昨晚的大冒险，心里面真的有点痛，有点伤，有点酸。先说说我昨晚的大冒险吧。昨天我5pm上巴士前往怡保（要到金宝，若使用巴士，就必须先到怡保，再转巴士。）。6.50pm到达怡保。这一个时段以向来都很多乘客。从怡保到金宝的巴士是7.15pm的，所以我只好等了。好不容易上了巴士前往金宝了，突然下起大雨来，不过还好，我在车里，下雨也无妨。到达金宝，时间是8.15pm。当时下着雨，旧城里我居住的新城大约有2-3km吧？我不太清楚，不过我记得，若走路回家需要1个钟头。平均1个人走路的速度是1.5-2km/h。最快的一班车（最后一班）是9.15pm。这一个钟，我又冷，又饿，真的觉得很无助。终于，9.15pm，有车回去了。到了新城，还在下着雨。我淋着雨走了约十分钟去打包晚餐，走上三楼，回到我房间。看看时间，原来我的大冒险历时5个小时。
昨天我真的觉得好累。总觉得我回来，做了那么多，一点成果都没有。教会活动太多，我挪不出时间来配合大家。一直都有时间安排上的碰撞，导致人手稀少。少年人………宁愿打羽球，也不来。我也不记得我最后一次打羽球是几时了。只觉得做了那么多，为了什么？牺牲这一切，全部人也只不过当你在吠。虽然如此，我也的确发掘了不少真的献上自己来学习的少年人，这点让有有点安慰。我知道我走的路正确，目标对准了，只是走的方式不对。有必要的话，我会离开全心，让更多人能够来参与。
昨晚神用了一个很奇特的方式来安慰我（当我向他诉说这一切的时候）。他让我唱《你的最爱》，来自赞美之泉的“沙漠中的赞美”专辑里的一首歌，让我重新站立，充满力量。
p.s. 我把我觉得有趣的画面放上了我的facebook，有空可以看看~^^
回想起昨晚的大冒险，心里面真的有点痛，有点伤，有点酸。先说说我昨晚的大冒险吧。昨天我5pm上巴士前往怡保（要到金宝，若使用巴士，就必须先到怡保，再转巴士。）。6.50pm到达怡保。这一个时段以向来都很多乘客。从怡保到金宝的巴士是7.15pm的，所以我只好等了。好不容易上了巴士前往金宝了，突然下起大雨来，不过还好，我在车里，下雨也无妨。到达金宝，时间是8.15pm。当时下着雨，旧城里我居住的新城大约有2-3km吧？我不太清楚，不过我记得，若走路回家需要1个钟头。平均1个人走路的速度是1.5-2km/h。最快的一班车（最后一班）是9.15pm。这一个钟，我又冷，又饿，真的觉得很无助。终于，9.15pm，有车回去了。到了新城，还在下着雨。我淋着雨走了约十分钟去打包晚餐，走上三楼，回到我房间。看看时间，原来我的大冒险历时5个小时。
昨天我真的觉得好累。总觉得我回来，做了那么多，一点成果都没有。教会活动太多，我挪不出时间来配合大家。一直都有时间安排上的碰撞，导致人手稀少。少年人………宁愿打羽球，也不来。我也不记得我最后一次打羽球是几时了。只觉得做了那么多，为了什么？牺牲这一切，全部人也只不过当你在吠。虽然如此，我也的确发掘了不少真的献上自己来学习的少年人，这点让有有点安慰。我知道我走的路正确，目标对准了，只是走的方式不对。有必要的话，我会离开全心，让更多人能够来参与。
昨晚神用了一个很奇特的方式来安慰我（当我向他诉说这一切的时候）。他让我唱《你的最爱》，来自赞美之泉的“沙漠中的赞美”专辑里的一首歌，让我重新站立，充满力量。
p.s. 我把我觉得有趣的画面放上了我的facebook，有空可以看看~^^
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Night in Kampar
I found out something weird tonight... actually i've been seeing this phenomenon for years, it's just i never state it out.
You'll rarely be able to find any stars in Kampar's night sky.
I dunnoe why, but it's true... quite difficult to look for stars in kampar, though there are some exceptions.
perhaps it refers to me?
by coincidence, my name's also sky.
1 more thing i found out about kampar is, the old town "sleeps" at 8pm, but some corners in the new town are like vegas, it never rests. I guess you can find Malaysia's biggest CyberCafe here. 5 shops in a row, combined together to form the biggest CC in kampar, perhaps even Perak!
then, there is a grass field near Kampar's high class hotel, Grand Kampar Hotel. U can see alot of students having private barbeque parties there during the nights, around the grass field~ it feels like having a campfire~though i wasn't invited for the party, i just visit past them last time, when i was looking for my dinner.
there are a lot of food stores / shops here in kampar... u'll be able to find mamak stores, rice shops, western cuisine, fusion cuisine (HK style), ice blended fruits(they have even durian ice blended...), even dim sum too..... hehe~ that contributed alot to my weight lol~ you should not be worrying about food, you should instead worry about ur wallet...
this is a weird city, i dun love it, but i dun hate it either... perhaps i took it as a stepping stone, in my life, i just stop here for a while, resting my feet, before i continue with my journey? yeah... i think so...
You'll rarely be able to find any stars in Kampar's night sky.
I dunnoe why, but it's true... quite difficult to look for stars in kampar, though there are some exceptions.
perhaps it refers to me?
by coincidence, my name's also sky.
1 more thing i found out about kampar is, the old town "sleeps" at 8pm, but some corners in the new town are like vegas, it never rests. I guess you can find Malaysia's biggest CyberCafe here. 5 shops in a row, combined together to form the biggest CC in kampar, perhaps even Perak!
then, there is a grass field near Kampar's high class hotel, Grand Kampar Hotel. U can see alot of students having private barbeque parties there during the nights, around the grass field~ it feels like having a campfire~though i wasn't invited for the party, i just visit past them last time, when i was looking for my dinner.
there are a lot of food stores / shops here in kampar... u'll be able to find mamak stores, rice shops, western cuisine, fusion cuisine (HK style), ice blended fruits(they have even durian ice blended...), even dim sum too..... hehe~ that contributed alot to my weight lol~ you should not be worrying about food, you should instead worry about ur wallet...
this is a weird city, i dun love it, but i dun hate it either... perhaps i took it as a stepping stone, in my life, i just stop here for a while, resting my feet, before i continue with my journey? yeah... i think so...
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Memory Traveling
Time travel. It's a deep term, with huge meaning, and it brings a lot of benefit to human race if it is possible. Imagine that you could travel back in time to stop the world wars, what would happen to the present? Perhaps Adolf Hitler would be a nobody, and there won't be nuclear detonations in Japan. It is a beautiful dream, isn't it? But since we haven't successfully invented a time machine, so this remains quite impossible to reach.
Have you heard of memory traveling?
Whether has anyone experienced this, I have no idea, but I did. It was kind of a soul's encounter. Whenever i went visiting some places I've been there before, I could see flashes of memories I have there. For example, I saw my tracks in the school where i used to study, seeing them flashing over my window of soul, in a form of a faded shadow. All these happens in my head.
It feels like time traveling, just it's not in a time line we're traveling in, but in our own memory. It helps us to review the decisions we made in the past, having a chance to correct what we've done wrong, or to remorse for some faults we've previously did.
I thank God for giving me a ticket to this adventure. He gave me a chance to correct my wrong. Even God is telling me to study. Personally I thinkthese journeys are a great way of checking my own growth status. It reflects how much I've grown up spiritually.
Now, I would like to enclose a short story regarding to Sunday's Whole Heart P&W team.
I felt tired recently, for my services. Sad, because I caused the teens to fear me for my strictness. Sad, because I felt that I sacrificed more that I have for result, as they don't appreciate it. Personally I think I'm not strict enough, I'm considered a lot milder that the organizations they have in their school already. It's just they've never experienced that kind of tense sensation, they've been pampered by their family and friends, that's why they could not accept my words. But then. peoples are leaving the team, what should I do? Should I just ignore, keep on with an iron grip? Or should i pamper them as their friends did? My own opinion is, if you're eager to learn more, to grow up, to evolve, to be better, you won't complain about the strictness of the tutor. The stricter the better. Those complaining about strictness of the tutor are those who were satisfied with their current possessions, and does not want to get better. They're comfortable with what they have now. They don't want anything else.
I felt so sad when i found out about these. Frankly speaking, I do care about how people look upon me. Of course, I understand that it's hard to satisfy the world, but...... I need guidance, Lord, a direction where i could go.Plan A is going to be held down for a while now, until next year, due to the choir practices that's going to start soon. This is partly God's arrangement, so I dare not complain. Since choir practices are being tutored by me, i don't think it makes such a difference, vocal lessons can still be taught in choir practices.
One more thing, I was thinking of starting a P&W cell group, which was already on the run, thanks to Luke, and I'm recruiting only those who were willing to keep their distance close to God, willing to sacrifice for Jesus. The whole thing would be like a cell group, with sharing and such, combined with band practices.
Luke had been my faithful companion and half a tutor, to these i owe him a gratitude, may God bless him always, and lastly, may Glory be the Lord Jesus.
Have you heard of memory traveling?
Whether has anyone experienced this, I have no idea, but I did. It was kind of a soul's encounter. Whenever i went visiting some places I've been there before, I could see flashes of memories I have there. For example, I saw my tracks in the school where i used to study, seeing them flashing over my window of soul, in a form of a faded shadow. All these happens in my head.
It feels like time traveling, just it's not in a time line we're traveling in, but in our own memory. It helps us to review the decisions we made in the past, having a chance to correct what we've done wrong, or to remorse for some faults we've previously did.
I thank God for giving me a ticket to this adventure. He gave me a chance to correct my wrong. Even God is telling me to study. Personally I thinkthese journeys are a great way of checking my own growth status. It reflects how much I've grown up spiritually.
Now, I would like to enclose a short story regarding to Sunday's Whole Heart P&W team.
I felt tired recently, for my services. Sad, because I caused the teens to fear me for my strictness. Sad, because I felt that I sacrificed more that I have for result, as they don't appreciate it. Personally I think I'm not strict enough, I'm considered a lot milder that the organizations they have in their school already. It's just they've never experienced that kind of tense sensation, they've been pampered by their family and friends, that's why they could not accept my words. But then. peoples are leaving the team, what should I do? Should I just ignore, keep on with an iron grip? Or should i pamper them as their friends did? My own opinion is, if you're eager to learn more, to grow up, to evolve, to be better, you won't complain about the strictness of the tutor. The stricter the better. Those complaining about strictness of the tutor are those who were satisfied with their current possessions, and does not want to get better. They're comfortable with what they have now. They don't want anything else.
I felt so sad when i found out about these. Frankly speaking, I do care about how people look upon me. Of course, I understand that it's hard to satisfy the world, but...... I need guidance, Lord, a direction where i could go.Plan A is going to be held down for a while now, until next year, due to the choir practices that's going to start soon. This is partly God's arrangement, so I dare not complain. Since choir practices are being tutored by me, i don't think it makes such a difference, vocal lessons can still be taught in choir practices.
One more thing, I was thinking of starting a P&W cell group, which was already on the run, thanks to Luke, and I'm recruiting only those who were willing to keep their distance close to God, willing to sacrifice for Jesus. The whole thing would be like a cell group, with sharing and such, combined with band practices.
Luke had been my faithful companion and half a tutor, to these i owe him a gratitude, may God bless him always, and lastly, may Glory be the Lord Jesus.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
巨蟹座
巨蟹是心軟的，容易被感動，即使表面看起來總是有一副硬硬的殼，但那殼子底下是一顆柔軟敏感到極至的內 心。它們面對一份感情是猶豫再三的，不要說它們懦弱，它們只是明白自己是容易受傷的。他們對感情抱有信仰，相信純真、相信天長地久，所以有時是挑剔的。 這是一層表面堅硬的殼，其實攻克輕而易舉，因為蟹蟹有一顆柔軟的心。 蟹蟹戀愛了，這時的它們變的很粘人，很婆媽，因為你是它的中心，它會為你考慮很 多，飯吃了嗎？天氣會變了嗎？記得帶傘哦！路上車多，慢點走哦！……..諸如此類！ 蟹蟹是深情而癡情的，愛上一個人會愛的很深，即使明知道沒有結果也 很難自拔。這是巨蟹的一種固執，想要得到的東西，往往不會輕易放手。有時，一段沒有結果的戀情會成為蟹蟹的生活重心。這無疑是痛苦的，但又難以自拔。然 而，巨蟹的不安全感又在內心大叫著放棄，所以這時的蟹蟹總是在堅持和放棄的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬著。學會放棄是蟹蟹的一門功課. 當然，如果蟹蟹真的決定 放棄了，它的堅決會讓所有人吃驚。 要記住：除了你自己，沒有人可以傷害到你 蟹子是癡情的，但又不善於表達，面對自己心愛的人拘謹、放不開。它 們的幽默感此刻變得生澀。 蟹子是深情的，但又不善於把握，為什麼一次次控制不住自己的情緒，說出明知不該講的話？ 分裂而善於幻想的寄居蟹在說巨蟹 之前，先說說幾個一直以來欣賞的幾個偶像，他們都不同，但他們有一個共同點，就是，他們都是巨蟹男。周星馳，王家衛，羅大佑，李宗盛，梁朝偉，張學友…… 一般在每次排行榜中總是靠末的巨蟹們，看起來並沒有很明顯的個性，但是，他們在藝術方面的直覺和敏銳卻是別人難以匹敵，從這幾個人名裡就不難看出。他們在 生活中都是溫文爾雅的，被動的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他們的電影，歌曲中，卻展露出令人驚異的才華，讓我們總是不由自主的為之傾倒。當周星馳讓我們笑 得淚水橫流的時候，我們也早聽聞其實戲外的他認真嚴肅，不苟言笑，對待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我們知道在戲裡演什麼都神形畢似的影帝梁朝偉同性格南轅北轍的 射手劉嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不願結婚，他總是說，其實他的人生就是在戲裡；我們知道張學友出道前曾經是黑社會的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自棄，也看到張 學友成名後依然為了家庭拚命打拼，幾近崩潰…… 這就是巨蟹，其實，最能說明巨蟹特質的，就是－－分裂無論是哪一種蟹，他們都有著分裂的思想。他們渴望 安定，也渴望出人頭地，他們內心充滿藝術的靈感，誇張的幻象，但是在現實生活中，他們總是低眉順眼，很難真正展露心中的狂想。所以在藝術的舞台上，他們反 而得以施展，讓心中奇異的狂想放大到極致，他們可以將任何一首歌一個角色演繹的入木三分，所有來自於生活中被動的接受，在藝術的殿堂上得到了最好的宣洩， 所以巨蟹真的應該屬於舞台。即使沒有好的歌喉沒有好的外形，但是他們有良好的感受力和表現力，他們的性格實際上更像是一隻寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他 們常常將自己包裹的很緊，但在詮釋和演繹別人的時候，他們那內心的感情得到了釋放。 巨蟹座的另一個長處是他們有著哲學的思考力世界因兩股力量相互消 長，而水象就是典型的陰柔之力。水象星座的人有一種天生的宇宙觀，巨蟹也是如此，加之他們天生有母愛的情結，所以他們的思考往往帶有著人性化的關懷。所以 從事與藝術相關的行業的巨蟹，無論如何都可以算是幸運的巨蟹，因為能夠得以發揮天然的性格所長。但是不是每個巨蟹都有這樣的機會，所以大多數巨蟹都會感到 自己的壓抑和痛苦。他們不是沒有渴望，相反他們需求很多，渴望很多，但是他們總是躲在自己的殼裡做著各式各樣的幻夢，只是在想，很少實施。所以如果你看到 的總是低眉順眼的巨蟹實際上並不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一個假象。 永遠無法抹去的自卑巨蟹們其實是自我感覺很好的心高氣傲的一群人，但是卻又難以 克服時時刻刻想躲進殼裡的自卑感。他們天生多疑和敏感，碰到困難，就先躲進殼裡，自欺欺人，在夢中編織自我的安全感，而從來沒有想到如何主動將危機轉化為 機遇。他們對待困難的消極方式，使他們總很難真正木秀於林，他們總在捕捉他們認為最好的時機，但是那個時機卻總是無法到來，其實世間哪有萬全之策？當蟹蟹 們艱苦的自我互博之時，大好時機已經失去。但是要改變這種天生的自卑感確乎很難，蟹蟹們幾乎完全不由自主。 懷舊是巨蟹們的人生主旋律巨蟹們非常懷舊。 他們喜歡舊東西，懷戀舊感情，對家庭有著天然的眷戀。泛黃的相片，褪色的絲帶，塵封的梳妝台……所有一切帶有浪漫情調的舊物，都可以讓他們獨自神傷，黯然 追想，他們總是沉浸在過去的回憶裡，永遠記得年少時的孤寂敏感，永遠記得初戀情人，多年後仍然四處找尋初戀情人的消息，慰籍多年來始終保持新鮮的記憶。所 以王家衛的電影總喜歡用這樣的句式開頭：多年以後…… 忽冷忽熱患得患失的愛情他們天生悲觀，永遠需要多一點，更多一點的安全感。為什麼他們如此需要安 全感，因為他們天生就沒有安全感，所以他們是很容易恐慌的，所以他們也就變得非常的多疑和猜忌。愛上一個巨蟹是要仔細思量的，因為他們會突然忽冷忽熱，突 然置之不理，突然惡言相向，但是其實他們並非不愛你，他們有時候是在跟自己嘔氣。他們渴望天天24小時同你粘在一起，他們對愛人有著強烈的佔有慾，恨不得 掏心掏肺給你，他們關注你的點點滴滴，小到為你買一支發卡，大到幫你選擇哪路公車……他們都費勁心思，他們時時刻刻每件事都為你考量，但又因為付出的不停 增加而變得越來越擔心害怕，會不會得不到對等的愛。所以他們會突然變得冷淡了，也許只因為你一個眼神，他們就覺得你已經不如從前，於是開始無休止的試探， 他們說話總是轉彎抹角，但是卻總希望你永遠清晰表態，假設某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹們立刻條件反射的開始惴想出無數個虛擬場景，在無盡的悲觀 中，意淫出種種悲慘場面，然後再見你時，就已經是冷口冷面，甚至說出無比絕情的話語－－所以，你和巨蟹的他們，是要努力去磨合的，給他們足夠的信賴和安 全，他們回饋你的，絕對讓你感動的熱淚盈眶。 虛偽包裝下易感的心實際上巨蟹善於偽裝。他們喜歡笑，無論何時何地，他們常常微笑，也許這笑容有時候讓人 欣慰，但有時候卻會讓人感到非常的虛偽。當然巨蟹們也總有自己的小奸小壞，但是他們虛偽的前提卻總是先為了保護自己。他們對自己應得的利益是淄銖必較，有 時候會讓人感到他們是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚會等場合上，他們又絕對是豪爽大方，主動搶著付賬的人。所以其實巨蟹是個公私概念很明確的人，他們對該 得的絕對毫不客氣，而對待朋友，他們又覺得其實這點錢根本不算什麼。他們是眷戀朋友和家人的，他們基本都有些喜歡酒。而且酒量都還不錯，因為他們眷戀那種 賓客相盡歡的氣氛，更眷戀著家的和樂融洽之感。所以巨蟹們喜歡做飯，即使不會做飯也對美食有天然偏愛，他們懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹們有個理想婚姻是最 快樂的事情。問題是巨蟹們卻常常選擇晚婚或不結婚，因為他們多疑又害怕，他們總是對新幻境充滿懷疑，對新的家庭又嚮往又拒絕，在自我矛盾中，不斷蹉跎了年 華。 自己為自己創造安定感覺巨蟹們總是不安，這是一種不好的感覺，因為如此，許多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，終日鬱鬱。其實，巨蟹們可以嘗試自己為自己創造安定的 感覺。找一個家裡人都喜歡的對象，建立一個自己的家，也許巨蟹會發現自己會變得安穩很多。找個摩羯是比較理想的選擇。或者找一個自己的愛好，傾注所有的心 血，自己也會變得安定很多。當然蟹蟹們也許會說，你這是站著說話不腰疼啊，要是那麼容易的話，還用得著你說嗎？呵。但是，無論怎樣，當我們自己意識到自己 的不安，就該努力去克服他，其實殼外的世界，沒有那麼可怕，這是真的。 總的說來，巨蟹們很可愛，尤其是在藝術上有成就的那些人，他們創造的都是令人仰 止的豐碑，所以巨蟹們不必沒來由自卑，其實你們都很出色。
Monday, October 5, 2009
First day back to Kampar 回金宝的第一天 (dual language)
今天我又回来了，金宝~
Kampar， I've returned!
新的学期开始了，我带着兵士出征的心情前往金宝。
As the new semester starts, i adapted the mood of soldiers going for war to Kampar...
何谓兵士出征的心情呢？
what does it mean?
顾名思义，就是兵士在出征打仗前的心情啰~
To be frank, it plainly means the feeling of soldiers before they went to the battlefield~
由于本身赘肉很多，多到。。。。不懂怎么形容。。。=.=
because of the fats on my body~
所以，我只带了铁马前行，
thats why i decide to take only bicycle there,
而且，为了让我的生活更像修行，我决意选三楼的宿舍。(ground floor, first floor, second floor, third floor 的三楼哦~)
and, to make my life "harsh", i chose my room to be on the third floor~
结果：我差点走断了脚。。。
Result: i nearly walked my leg into 2...
原因：今天下午，我下来楼下要办些手续，然后要去学校那时间表。当我进到宿舍办公室(ground floor)时，我发现我的钱包还在房间里！于是，我就上去拿了钱包，又下来处理那些手续。接下来，我又去了学校，拿了时间表，订了报纸，我又去一个离我宿舍1.8km的Tesco，买了晚餐。去Tesco的路途中必须经历一段斜坡，我去的时候还没什么，回来的时候可惨了！因为手上带了很多东西，满重的，结果斜坡上不了，要用推的。。。 那可真得累死我了。。。 回到宿舍楼下时，我差点没昏倒，三楼啊！为什么当初我要选择三楼？？ T.T 为什么当初我要选择脚车？ 后悔死了。。。
Reason: This afternoon, i was going downstairs to the administration Office of my hostel for some business, and then i thought i would go to school to get my timetable. But when i was in the office, i realized my wallet was in my room! and so i went upstairs to get my wallet, and then finishes my business in the hostel office, and went to school for the timetable.
After finishing everything in the campus, i went to Tesco, which is approximately 1.8km from my hostel. There's a slope in the journey, I didn't have much trouble when i was going, because it was a down slide. But when i came back with foods on my load, trouble came! I can't climb up the slope! And so i have to push my bike up the slope... the case goes worse when i reached under my hostel. I just stared at the stairs and almost passed out... third floor..... why did i pick third floor when i was applying for hostel room? why did i choose to have bike instead of motorcycle in the first place?? so regret.....
Kampar， I've returned!
新的学期开始了，我带着兵士出征的心情前往金宝。
As the new semester starts, i adapted the mood of soldiers going for war to Kampar...
何谓兵士出征的心情呢？
what does it mean?
顾名思义，就是兵士在出征打仗前的心情啰~
To be frank, it plainly means the feeling of soldiers before they went to the battlefield~
由于本身赘肉很多，多到。。。。不懂怎么形容。。。=.=
because of the fats on my body~
所以，我只带了铁马前行，
thats why i decide to take only bicycle there,
而且，为了让我的生活更像修行，我决意选三楼的宿舍。(ground floor, first floor, second floor, third floor 的三楼哦~)
and, to make my life "harsh", i chose my room to be on the third floor~
结果：我差点走断了脚。。。
Result: i nearly walked my leg into 2...
原因：今天下午，我下来楼下要办些手续，然后要去学校那时间表。当我进到宿舍办公室(ground floor)时，我发现我的钱包还在房间里！于是，我就上去拿了钱包，又下来处理那些手续。接下来，我又去了学校，拿了时间表，订了报纸，我又去一个离我宿舍1.8km的Tesco，买了晚餐。去Tesco的路途中必须经历一段斜坡，我去的时候还没什么，回来的时候可惨了！因为手上带了很多东西，满重的，结果斜坡上不了，要用推的。。。 那可真得累死我了。。。 回到宿舍楼下时，我差点没昏倒，三楼啊！为什么当初我要选择三楼？？ T.T 为什么当初我要选择脚车？ 后悔死了。。。
Reason: This afternoon, i was going downstairs to the administration Office of my hostel for some business, and then i thought i would go to school to get my timetable. But when i was in the office, i realized my wallet was in my room! and so i went upstairs to get my wallet, and then finishes my business in the hostel office, and went to school for the timetable.
After finishing everything in the campus, i went to Tesco, which is approximately 1.8km from my hostel. There's a slope in the journey, I didn't have much trouble when i was going, because it was a down slide. But when i came back with foods on my load, trouble came! I can't climb up the slope! And so i have to push my bike up the slope... the case goes worse when i reached under my hostel. I just stared at the stairs and almost passed out... third floor..... why did i pick third floor when i was applying for hostel room? why did i choose to have bike instead of motorcycle in the first place?? so regret.....
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sky's Memory Lane
Most of the people would say, Photo is the best way to keep certain memories afresh, so that the sweet moments would stay there for us to glance back.
But when i looked back to those pictures, it does not remind me of my sweet moments only, it makes me sad. Perhaps i'm not satisfied with my current life, i longed for the past.
i love it when i was in my elementary school. i had a "girl friend" there, grand daughter of the head master. it was great, i dont have to worry for anything. i went to school in the morning, singing along with the radio, imitating Aaron Kwok in the afternoon, watching Ultraman killing monsters every thursday. Most of all, my family is whole by then.
i love it too, when i was in my primary school. Although my father left us when i was in standard 3, it didn't really stops me from enjoying my childhood. My life starts mingling with music back then, when i decided to join the military band of SRJK(C) Chung Cheng. It was, my happiest time of my childhood. Not to mention that i was one of the elite students who got picked by the school for the PTS test, which, if passed, will have us go directly from standard 3 to standard 5. I didn't make it though, but it's okay, i earn some great friendship, for example, Lik Yin, Teck Kean, etc... Did you know that we once played "Ultraman Killing Monster" Game in class? We sort of bullied a kid in our class, having him to potray as every monster appeared in the series.. He's a Pantai Remis kid, with kinda-dirty appearance, pity him.... i still remembered there's once he had a ring around his eyes, and we lost counted who did it to him, since then we dropped the game... that boy came to school with his mother yelling her head off, it was 1 of the funny scenes i had.
Do you know when i started to know about Cyber Cafe? It was when i'm in standard 6. We went to play Counter Strike on an afternoon, skipping tuition, along with Tony, Chai Kang, and a few more friends. The feeling of breaking rules is thrilling.
When i was sent for secondary, i was a bit nervous at first, scared of losing friends, but luckily we all went into the same class. I applied for school prefect, having to think that it was so cool to be one, and i stayed as a prefect for the rest of my secondary years. Having asked "the" question, i answered: I wanted to serve the school, helping to maintain discipline of the student. What an answer! hahaha, i'm breaking rules under the guise as well, how on earth am i goin to do so? But i did contribute quite a lot to the school, helping to catch smokers in the school and such, it's just my own attitude's problem i wasn't promoted, so told the Discipline master to me. I learned a lot in my secondary years, about vocals from school's Choir team, about musics from school's Military Band, about relationships from my crushes, etc... i enjoyed my secondary years, even though i didn't thought i would. My sweetest memory when i was in secondary would probably be spending time with my crush-at the moment. ( XD )
Now i'm in college, i felt my friends are all gone, they would not stay beside me anymore, we didn't have class gathering anymore, even if they had, i would be too busy for it, because i had dedicated my time to the church. my college lads are only available when we're all in college. every time when i was in kampar, i felt so lonely, as if there's not shelter for me there. i felt so alone, until i've hooked up with my ex, last time. It was warm by then, having to fight for my future, for someone i love, someone who cares alot abt me, i felt so energetic. But, for that cause, i tend to demand alot from her, so in the end, we break up. it was hard to maintain, for peoples like me, cause i want alot from my couple, i want full attention, which would bring her a lot of pressure.
Actually i don't enjoy my college life, it was dull, and lonely.
i love my past more than i love my future.
The only thing i would love in my future is what can i do for my Lord. I want to build Him an Army of Praise, I'm working towards this direction now, and i believe, within His guidance, i will succeed in this mission. plz pray for me.
But when i looked back to those pictures, it does not remind me of my sweet moments only, it makes me sad. Perhaps i'm not satisfied with my current life, i longed for the past.
i love it when i was in my elementary school. i had a "girl friend" there, grand daughter of the head master. it was great, i dont have to worry for anything. i went to school in the morning, singing along with the radio, imitating Aaron Kwok in the afternoon, watching Ultraman killing monsters every thursday. Most of all, my family is whole by then.
i love it too, when i was in my primary school. Although my father left us when i was in standard 3, it didn't really stops me from enjoying my childhood. My life starts mingling with music back then, when i decided to join the military band of SRJK(C) Chung Cheng. It was, my happiest time of my childhood. Not to mention that i was one of the elite students who got picked by the school for the PTS test, which, if passed, will have us go directly from standard 3 to standard 5. I didn't make it though, but it's okay, i earn some great friendship, for example, Lik Yin, Teck Kean, etc... Did you know that we once played "Ultraman Killing Monster" Game in class? We sort of bullied a kid in our class, having him to potray as every monster appeared in the series.. He's a Pantai Remis kid, with kinda-dirty appearance, pity him.... i still remembered there's once he had a ring around his eyes, and we lost counted who did it to him, since then we dropped the game... that boy came to school with his mother yelling her head off, it was 1 of the funny scenes i had.
Do you know when i started to know about Cyber Cafe? It was when i'm in standard 6. We went to play Counter Strike on an afternoon, skipping tuition, along with Tony, Chai Kang, and a few more friends. The feeling of breaking rules is thrilling.
When i was sent for secondary, i was a bit nervous at first, scared of losing friends, but luckily we all went into the same class. I applied for school prefect, having to think that it was so cool to be one, and i stayed as a prefect for the rest of my secondary years. Having asked "the" question, i answered: I wanted to serve the school, helping to maintain discipline of the student. What an answer! hahaha, i'm breaking rules under the guise as well, how on earth am i goin to do so? But i did contribute quite a lot to the school, helping to catch smokers in the school and such, it's just my own attitude's problem i wasn't promoted, so told the Discipline master to me. I learned a lot in my secondary years, about vocals from school's Choir team, about musics from school's Military Band, about relationships from my crushes, etc... i enjoyed my secondary years, even though i didn't thought i would. My sweetest memory when i was in secondary would probably be spending time with my crush-at the moment. ( XD )
Now i'm in college, i felt my friends are all gone, they would not stay beside me anymore, we didn't have class gathering anymore, even if they had, i would be too busy for it, because i had dedicated my time to the church. my college lads are only available when we're all in college. every time when i was in kampar, i felt so lonely, as if there's not shelter for me there. i felt so alone, until i've hooked up with my ex, last time. It was warm by then, having to fight for my future, for someone i love, someone who cares alot abt me, i felt so energetic. But, for that cause, i tend to demand alot from her, so in the end, we break up. it was hard to maintain, for peoples like me, cause i want alot from my couple, i want full attention, which would bring her a lot of pressure.
Actually i don't enjoy my college life, it was dull, and lonely.
i love my past more than i love my future.
The only thing i would love in my future is what can i do for my Lord. I want to build Him an Army of Praise, I'm working towards this direction now, and i believe, within His guidance, i will succeed in this mission. plz pray for me.
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