曾经。。。

曾经的你，曾经的我。。
曾经的过去。。。

曾经的欢笑，曾经的泪水。。。
曾经的我们，彼此分享过对方心里最深刻的事。。。

然而，曾经的曾经已然消逝。。。

...曾经的一切，随着曾经是“现在”的时间，一起变成了“过去”。。。

被灰尘掩埋了，被繁忙遮盖了，被现在遗忘了。。。

过去的曾经，现在只是些泛黄的照片。。。

未来的以后，你、我，
是否还会像曾经的照片里一样，紧紧相依呢？

现在的你，是否把我忘了呢？

把我们的曾经也给抛弃了呢？

Hatred

I Hate my current life... 

i hate all those studies.. 

i hate those admin staffs kept on tellin me"It's ur last sem u know?", and did nothing to help.. 

i hate dat i failed so many(things) and spend so many time on all of them... the thing i hate ever since i was in secondary! 

"u're a bright kid, but u're lazy to study, dats all..." i hate this quote! 

"come on, we're waiting for u man, why wont u graduate??", i hate this taunt even more! 

it feels like they're just showing off how well they could study! man i hate it! i hate all those! 

but yet, i must do it... it's all about the pride... 

hw much of a pride i can get with a penny? 

i hate all these.. but yet, i could not find a way to express it out... hiding myself up seems a way to me... if i could, i would jus feels like wanna hide myself up for some time....

at least till i found out how to deal with all those...

Rainy morning in Kampar

How long, i wonder, had it stopped raining on the earth i stood on? We've been barbequed under the hot sun ever since the start of the year. The world's coming to an end? If not, why is the temperature of the earth surface exceeds 37 degree celcius?
lolz~ this is not my point~!
I've grew tired of lessons, classes in TARC.. having to walk this journey alone here is miserable. My life just repeat itself again and again.. classes on 1pm, ends at 2pm, then? went home for homework, more drama and movie? What goes after these? meals? games?
This is not my point either~!
I had plenty of views for something I'd wish to do, something dedicated to me by God. But, perhaps my views are too bizarre, it is proven not easy for the crowd to accept. They've tested my views again and again.. Time did prove that my views are correct, but i guess they've forgotten that before the others come to prove my theory accurate, I'm the one who proposed it. Most of the time, they think the guests brings in new techniques, new knowledge, but they never knew that we have a Technical Research and Discover Department of our own.
I said this not to prove that I'm such a genius or so. I'm just sad for being neglected, sad for being isolated, sad for the mistrust they showed me.
Yes, i may be proud, but who wouldn't be proud to have a true and living God? And to receive a great project from Him who overcomes death? Who wouldn't be proud to serve the Everlasting One? Who wouldn't be proud to sing for the One who came from God? Who won't? Aren't we suppose to brag about Jesus towards others, so that they learned of His glory? I thought this comment was made by Paul, if I'm correct?
Please, don't drive us away... yes, i am not alone, and i thank God for it. Please don't force us to leave what God has entrusted us to do. We bring no harm, leaders. We are just researchers who craves for better things, who would give anything to improve the status cuo.
I'm sad for what i get in return. I don't mind not being a leader. If that leader is gifted, God has a special plan for him/her, i am glad to follow.
I believe when God uses a man, He entrusts a vision to him/her, gives him/her whatever requirement to fulfill his/her tasks, for example the knowledge, the gift from heaven. Therefore, every leader of God's Kingdom has a heaven's mark on their soul, to mark them out from the others, so that they lead in God's army.
I once get a comment from a brother, who told me i am a power-thirsty person. What i do is just to gain influence and be a leader. What do you think?

主我永远爱你

This is a song i just wrote, melody and lyrics. I duno why, it just came to my head when i had a bath just now..

12/4 主我永远爱你

神羔羊，为了我来世上，
舍了一切荣耀，为了我们。

主耶稣，你如此地爱我，
甚至不惜一切，舍了生命。

# 主，我永远属你，
因你为了我们，钉在十架。
主，我永远爱你，
因为你爱我们，到永远，不改变。

Love, From A4J 2010

First of all, i'm sorry i was unable to share it cell group yesterday. I have to rush to kampar, because if i was too late, i'll reach my hostel at 10pm edi~

This blog is supposed to be posted last nite, but the internet in my hostel is down again... haiz, sad business~

Now, to continue to my story, as i reached Ipoh yesterday, an old indian woman came to me, asking for my help. She was a very old woman, i guess she's about 70. I noticed that she can't walk properly, perhaps some sickness on her legs? She carries 2 big luggages with her, and she has to cross the road. ( for your information, when we wanna go to kampar by bus, we have to get a bus from sitiawan to Ipoh first, and then walk a distance to another bus station nearby to catch a different bus to kampar. ) So i said yes. Usually i would just ignore these kind of situation, try to get myself as far as possible. I carried a luggage for that old madam, and we chatted in the journey,then suddenly i saw a bus that i was suppose to take ran past me! Immediately i tried to bid the old woman farewell, and ran after the bus (the bus did stop for me), but unfortunately i failed to catch the bus. So, disappointedly, i went back and help that old woman. I guess she saw my disappointment, because then she said to me:"son, don't be so afraid, you can get another bus over there."

And so, i accompanied her to the bus station. As we arrived, i heard she said :"halleluyah", and i was kinda like :"huh?!?!" She then asks if i'm a christian or not, i was shocked so i didnt reply her in words but i just show her the necklace hung on my neck. It was a cross. Then she said, i'm a christian too, and she blesses me. Through her face, i could see joy in it, as if she met a relative accidentally.

God taught us about LOVE this year in A4J, all sorts of LOVE. Love our nation, love our church, love our family, love our friends, love our leaders, love all the lost souls. And He just taught me again, how to love a stranger. I would never forget the grip of the old madam, when i helped her to cross the road.

Being needed by someone who needs help, that's LOVE.

Being a glass of water for those who were thirsty, that's LOVE.

(to all those friends who's waiting for a chinese translation, i'm sorry, but u guys have to wait for a little while lo... kinda busy recently~ will get it done A.S.A.P.~)

伤信 Sad Letter

给一位隐居在我心里的女生，

某某某小姐，你好。虽然我知道你的名字，可是我不太肯定是不是你，所以我没用你的名字来称呼你。基于你已经有好几个月都没交房租了，在迫不得已的情况之下我只好要求你搬离我的心了。对不起，你不能再霸占这个单位却不付相对的租金。请求你给与合作，并于近期内搬离。谢谢。

心碎的房东上。

To a girl who lives deeply in my heart.

Hello. Although i think i know you, but i'm not certain of it, so i didn't address you with your name. Due to the owed rentals, I would have to ask you to move out of my heart. I'm sorry but i cannot let you stay here without paying the rent. Your co-operation is appreciated. You are expected to move out as soon as possible. Thank you.

Heart-broken landlord.

爱主

你爱主吗？怎么个爱法？

你爱主吗？有多深呢？

究竟怎么才算是爱主呢？

是否守着主日就算爱主呢？

或是热心事奉，就算爱主呢？

难道，为主牺牲，才算爱主？

你爱主吗？这个问题你有问过自己吗？

别误会，我问这个问题并非要告诉你们，我有多爱主。。。。。。

实际上，我也不是很爱主。。。。。。

我只是心中好奇而已。

要怎么做，才是爱主呢？

要怎么做，才会让我们对主的爱不只是嘴巴上说说而已呢？


《我一生要赞美你》--赞美之泉

高唱主，我爱你

高举我双手来赞美你

我的心，充满欢喜

我要歌唱来颂扬你

高唱 哈利路亚

我的心充满欢欣

高唱主，我爱你

我一生要赞美你


神对我说话了。。

[我只想平平安安地过日子，无忧无虑。纠纷，纷争，阴谋，诡计，争宠，夺权，暗算，虚伪，谎言，伪善，等等。。都离我而去吧。。我什么都不想要，我只想唱歌赞美祂。]