How long, i wonder, had it stopped raining on the earth i stood on? We've been barbequed under the hot sun ever since the start of the year. The world's coming to an end? If not, why is the temperature of the earth surface exceeds 37 degree celcius?
lolz~ this is not my point~!
I've grew tired of lessons, classes in TARC.. having to walk this journey alone here is miserable. My life just repeat itself again and again.. classes on 1pm, ends at 2pm, then? went home for homework, more drama and movie? What goes after these? meals? games?
This is not my point either~!
I had plenty of views for something I'd wish to do, something dedicated to me by God. But, perhaps my views are too bizarre, it is proven not easy for the crowd to accept. They've tested my views again and again.. Time did prove that my views are correct, but i guess they've forgotten that before the others come to prove my theory accurate, I'm the one who proposed it. Most of the time, they think the guests brings in new techniques, new knowledge, but they never knew that we have a Technical Research and Discover Department of our own.
I said this not to prove that I'm such a genius or so. I'm just sad for being neglected, sad for being isolated, sad for the mistrust they showed me.
Yes, i may be proud, but who wouldn't be proud to have a true and living God? And to receive a great project from Him who overcomes death? Who wouldn't be proud to serve the Everlasting One? Who wouldn't be proud to sing for the One who came from God? Who won't? Aren't we suppose to brag about Jesus towards others, so that they learned of His glory? I thought this comment was made by Paul, if I'm correct?
Please, don't drive us away... yes, i am not alone, and i thank God for it. Please don't force us to leave what God has entrusted us to do. We bring no harm, leaders. We are just researchers who craves for better things, who would give anything to improve the status cuo.
I'm sad for what i get in return. I don't mind not being a leader. If that leader is gifted, God has a special plan for him/her, i am glad to follow.
I believe when God uses a man, He entrusts a vision to him/her, gives him/her whatever requirement to fulfill his/her tasks, for example the knowledge, the gift from heaven. Therefore, every leader of God's Kingdom has a heaven's mark on their soul, to mark them out from the others, so that they lead in God's army.
I once get a comment from a brother, who told me i am a power-thirsty person. What i do is just to gain influence and be a leader. What do you think?
